Day 5:

Isaiah 61

" 1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me;..."

To do what?

"...because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;

2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;

3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

4And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations.

5And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.

6But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves."

What is the Gentiles? where is it referring to? So confusing...

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Anyways, yesterday i received good news that if i move in with charlene next year, i will just have to pay $600/month just like what im paying now! Actually the timing is perfect cos Nick is going back to singapore too. hopefully i get into melbourne uni so that its nearer for me =S if not, i dunno how...

GOD PLS BRING CLARITY!

So far, the signs point to staying here.. oh yea, the other thing is that i got offered to do honours in monash... so yea =)

Day 4: "What do you want me to do for you?"

40 day fast has started and it has been super crazy hard!!!
I am fasting 1 hour of my time in the morning before i go about my day. Its so hard an i must admit that ive not been consistent and have been really tired. But the Lord is my source and my strength. Jia you!

I am fasting for a direction for next year. Should I do honours? masters? go back sg? Find work? do what? I really have no clue....

May God bring clarity as i seek him these 40 days.

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Day 4: "What do you want me to do for you?"
Matt 20:29-21:17
- Two blind men receiving sight. Jesus asked "what do you want me to do for you?". He had compassion and healed them. Jesus at the temple in anger overturned gambling tables and proclaimed that his is the house of prayer. He then continued to heal the lame and blind and used scriptures to rebuke the pharisees who tried to discredit him.

As i read this i felt that Jesus was asking me what do i want. What do I want him to do for me? I actually don't know what i want... All i want is to have what God wants for me. What is his path for me?
I also observed that though in anger, Jesus still had compassion for those around him. He was still able to heal. Also, he had a good tactic in rebuking the pharisees. Many people will wrong you but how do you handle that situation? Use the law then leave the place to avoid further assaults?

I feel this 40 days will align my heart towards God's and eventually, i will know his will for me.

Dear God, thank you that you have given me a hope and a future that i may be confident in you and assured that my future is in your hands and that i am precious in your sight. Thank you for caring for me. I pray that you align my heart towards yours that i may know what direction to take. Clarify the situation oh God that i may know that the Lord of Lords have spoken. Give and will a desire within me that is consistent with yours as I look towards you. Guide my heart and will. At the same time, give me the compassion for others at all times and give me the wisdom to know how to rebuke. I pray for your grace and mercy. Forgive me my sins today and cleanse me from unrightousness. May you glory reign in me and may your spirit dwell peacefully within me.

Thanks for that! In the name of Jesus i pray, AMEN!