Faithful He is. His providence is perfect in timing, never slow and never too quick.
It was stress time again to plan for next year's budget and expenses. It always seem insufficient but in the nick of time, God always hae stuff up his sleeves. So tada, he did some magic trick and my worries went away.
Also, i think i might plan to go back to sg like next mid year. Wee! I miss everyone so much... i'm dying to go back. I hope ppl appreciates what they have.
I've been pretty bored and unmotivated these days. It seems like my days are spent meaningless and wasted. Nothing to do... either work or waste time. What can i do? I also need to think abt 2010 alr. New Year. How to start it??? I'll be working 10-4pm and 6pm-1am on NYE. Ends with work and starts with work. How interesting. I think i'll just totally knock out after that.
Also i've been even unmotivated to play sims alr. What is the world coming to? sigh.
Anyways, perhaps its good i work too. Maybe it was a way God used to make me work for my money.. hahaha. cos i get paid more too... so yea. =S gg man. not looking forward to it at all. Now gotta trust he provides me with the energy and mental capacity to handle the workload. Chiong ah!!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
The Unusual Christmas
This year Christmas was really different.
It was raining on Christmas eve, the Christmas light ups here are so pathetic that you don't even realise that they have put up decor, no Christmas service on Christmas day or whatever, i had to work on 25th and to top it off... my loved ones are not with me. No family, no friends (church peeps that hang out every year and get bored together but still enjoy each other's company) and not even Andrew on Christmas day cos he'll be at his holiday home with family while i work thru the day. Totally no mood for party and everything seemed so meaningless. Where's the festive spirit? The gift giving? The familiar banter over nice Christmas dinner? Where's the meaning of Christmas? Apart from last Sunday's Christmas service, there was no mention of Jesus' birth at all. So different it is.
Anyways, so Christmas eve was spent at a club which i had to settle tickets for really inconsiderate friends that came like more than 2 hours late and to cut the long story short... it was such a tough time getting the tickets to them and i got blamed for it when i had to inconvenience all my friends just to help them get last min tickets and to get the tickets thru to them. Not to mention i spent like half of the night trying to work it out and missed the countdown as I waited alone for them to come in. And they are not even my close friends! Totally spoiler man... and they were even rude to my friends who tried to help out... like huh? So i guess being a samaritan wasn't that wise at that time huh... but the night went on ok... i had a short time of fun with Andrew (the place was so crowded and big that we lost all our friends but it was good still cos we could spend time together before we left early to head home cos i've work and he has to drive out early). Overall, it was still pretty uneventful.
The unexpected surprise for Christmas was a lovely dinner at Melissa's place and stayover at Su-Ann's. I had a wonderful time with the 3 girls over home cooked food by Mel. Mel's place was just lovely and the effort she put in to host us was amazing! It was such a blessing... the stay over at Su-Ann's was also good... it was good time spent getting to know her and just chilling out. Spoke to father too... havn't spoken to him in ages! I reckon we had a good conversation tho.. so Christmas in the end wasn't that bad.
On the side note, i just want to complain that my hands are very dry now cos of all the washing i do at the 2 jobs and my nails have been real flakey. So cannot even paint them. What a bummer huh?
Back to Christmas... I thank God still that i'm not like the little matchgirl who was poor and friendless and had to die on the streets on Christmas. At least i've some warmth from all that love... =)
Oh btw... i also wanted to say that i missed today's boxing day sale!!! Omg.. this is like the biggest sale event.. better than great Singapore sale can!!! And i had to work. =( I was walking around and was so tempted to shop but i had to work. Bummer. Nvm la. Save money!!! still abit sian la.. but whatever.
Hope New year's would be better for me tho i just found out too that i'd be working till 1am which means i'll have another meaningless countdown. Wah lao..............
It was raining on Christmas eve, the Christmas light ups here are so pathetic that you don't even realise that they have put up decor, no Christmas service on Christmas day or whatever, i had to work on 25th and to top it off... my loved ones are not with me. No family, no friends (church peeps that hang out every year and get bored together but still enjoy each other's company) and not even Andrew on Christmas day cos he'll be at his holiday home with family while i work thru the day. Totally no mood for party and everything seemed so meaningless. Where's the festive spirit? The gift giving? The familiar banter over nice Christmas dinner? Where's the meaning of Christmas? Apart from last Sunday's Christmas service, there was no mention of Jesus' birth at all. So different it is.
Anyways, so Christmas eve was spent at a club which i had to settle tickets for really inconsiderate friends that came like more than 2 hours late and to cut the long story short... it was such a tough time getting the tickets to them and i got blamed for it when i had to inconvenience all my friends just to help them get last min tickets and to get the tickets thru to them. Not to mention i spent like half of the night trying to work it out and missed the countdown as I waited alone for them to come in. And they are not even my close friends! Totally spoiler man... and they were even rude to my friends who tried to help out... like huh? So i guess being a samaritan wasn't that wise at that time huh... but the night went on ok... i had a short time of fun with Andrew (the place was so crowded and big that we lost all our friends but it was good still cos we could spend time together before we left early to head home cos i've work and he has to drive out early). Overall, it was still pretty uneventful.
The unexpected surprise for Christmas was a lovely dinner at Melissa's place and stayover at Su-Ann's. I had a wonderful time with the 3 girls over home cooked food by Mel. Mel's place was just lovely and the effort she put in to host us was amazing! It was such a blessing... the stay over at Su-Ann's was also good... it was good time spent getting to know her and just chilling out. Spoke to father too... havn't spoken to him in ages! I reckon we had a good conversation tho.. so Christmas in the end wasn't that bad.
On the side note, i just want to complain that my hands are very dry now cos of all the washing i do at the 2 jobs and my nails have been real flakey. So cannot even paint them. What a bummer huh?
Back to Christmas... I thank God still that i'm not like the little matchgirl who was poor and friendless and had to die on the streets on Christmas. At least i've some warmth from all that love... =)
Oh btw... i also wanted to say that i missed today's boxing day sale!!! Omg.. this is like the biggest sale event.. better than great Singapore sale can!!! And i had to work. =( I was walking around and was so tempted to shop but i had to work. Bummer. Nvm la. Save money!!! still abit sian la.. but whatever.
Hope New year's would be better for me tho i just found out too that i'd be working till 1am which means i'll have another meaningless countdown. Wah lao..............
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
It is!
My period just came yesterday. I think i missed one month so this month is sooo roller coaster... like my hormones are all over the place and making me feel so emo! wah lao. Its like drugs u know, it accentuates all emotions to whacked out proportions except that with period its mostly negative emotions. Never get high one.
So i'm partly right but it stemmed from somewhere. Well, i'm feeling lots better today. I think i had a glimpse of what pre-natal blues are like. Wow. How terrible! I didn't realise that I could be a potential needy bitch with such emotional unstablility. I never knew i had that capacity.. but then again, i'm female. Such is life.
Well tonight i'm gonna be working from 7pm to 4am. I hope my boss pays me extra. My hols are so meaningless. Ok i shud just shut up abt that alr. I think i'm slipping into friendless mode again. Help Tong! Hehe...
I really miss church on sat evenings and my friends. I miss everyone at fga. I wanna go back and reconnect... i wanna meet the new ppl that have joined the family and i wanna warm my seat at the dinner table and commune over christmas again. Reunite. That is the word. I wanna reunite.
Omg, i'm so happy dishan called me! =)
So i'm partly right but it stemmed from somewhere. Well, i'm feeling lots better today. I think i had a glimpse of what pre-natal blues are like. Wow. How terrible! I didn't realise that I could be a potential needy bitch with such emotional unstablility. I never knew i had that capacity.. but then again, i'm female. Such is life.
Well tonight i'm gonna be working from 7pm to 4am. I hope my boss pays me extra. My hols are so meaningless. Ok i shud just shut up abt that alr. I think i'm slipping into friendless mode again. Help Tong! Hehe...
I really miss church on sat evenings and my friends. I miss everyone at fga. I wanna go back and reconnect... i wanna meet the new ppl that have joined the family and i wanna warm my seat at the dinner table and commune over christmas again. Reunite. That is the word. I wanna reunite.
Omg, i'm so happy dishan called me! =)
Monday, December 21, 2009
Period.
Yes, i am going to blame my period again. I've been feeling down recently and i don't know y again. Y like this one? Y always have to feel this way and i always don't know y. Urgh!
Anyways, i've been trying to be postiive and have been doing stuff to keep myself happy but is this the right way to deal with things? Is there something going on inside that needs attention? Maybe i need some soul searching.
I miss my friends back in SG. And i feel empty inside... like so meaningless. Even God has become like a routine. I need to break away.
Gotta work on Christmas too. And I am unhappy that Christmas has become meaningless. Nothing to do here so i'm attending this party at a club. How meaningless??? Geez... and NYE there's no watchnight service. I'll be attending this house party.. and i might even work through countdown. How lame! This is pathetic... I am going to set aside my own time before Christmas and New Year to be still and think abt stuff and reflect on 09 and look forward to 2010. Gotta take time off to thank God and pray about stuff too.. but it's so lame how i've to spend time doing lame shit. Urgh!
Work's being a bitch too and i'll be starting summer school on 5 Jan. Not looking forward to it. =S Also not looking forward to starting sch and keeping 2 jobs. I wanna say FML but i don't think that's appropriate. God's been real good to me. This TGIF totally spoke to me:
When Hope is Deferred
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Friday, December 11 2009
"So Satan went out from the presence of the LORD and afflicted Job with painful sores from the soles of his feet to the top of his head. Then Job took a piece of broken pottery and scraped himself with it as he sat among the ashes. His wife said to him, 'Are you still holding on to your integrity? Curse God and die!'" (Job 2:7-9).
I walked into the room and Angie burst out crying. "I'm so discouraged! I don't know what else to do. Will I ever get better!?" After three years of fighting a medical condition the doctor just told her no progress had been made in the last six months of treatments. Alternative treatment was needed that might have more severe side effects.
Great men of God with healing ministries had prayed for her. Thousands had prayed for Angie through our ministry. A string of doctors had failed to yield any position results. When hope is deferred, the psalmist says, the heart becomes sick. During these seasons, we can only do one thing. We must hang onto whatever faith we have to get through each day and entrust our lives to Him. "Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior" (Hab 3:17-18).
When faith doesn't see results it challenges what we believe. We must pray as Job prayed: "Teach me what I cannot see" (Job 34:32). God says there is a purpose in everything we go through. Later that day Angie talked to a friend who once had the same issues, but was now better. "Angie, God is going to reveal things to you through this season of adversity that you would never receive had you not gone through this. This is part of your calling even though Satan is the instrument. God is always bigger than Satan's afflictions."
Our greatest tests come when we cannot see positive results from our faith and obedience. In such cases we must die to our expectations and entrust them to our Lord.
***
Peace out!
Anyways, i've been trying to be postiive and have been doing stuff to keep myself happy but is this the right way to deal with things? Is there something going on inside that needs attention? Maybe i need some soul searching.
I miss my friends back in SG. And i feel empty inside... like so meaningless. Even God has become like a routine. I need to break away.
Gotta work on Christmas too. And I am unhappy that Christmas has become meaningless. Nothing to do here so i'm attending this party at a club. How meaningless??? Geez... and NYE there's no watchnight service. I'll be attending this house party.. and i might even work through countdown. How lame! This is pathetic... I am going to set aside my own time before Christmas and New Year to be still and think abt stuff and reflect on 09 and look forward to 2010. Gotta take time off to thank God and pray about stuff too.. but it's so lame how i've to spend time doing lame shit. Urgh!
Work's being a bitch too and i'll be starting summer school on 5 Jan. Not looking forward to it. =S Also not looking forward to starting sch and keeping 2 jobs. I wanna say FML but i don't think that's appropriate. God's been real good to me. This TGIF totally spoke to me:
When Hope is Deferred
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Friday, December 11 2009
"So Satan went out from the presence of the LORD and afflicted Job with painful sores from the soles of his feet to the top of his head. Then Job took a piece of broken pottery and scraped himself with it as he sat among the ashes. His wife said to him, 'Are you still holding on to your integrity? Curse God and die!'" (Job 2:7-9).
I walked into the room and Angie burst out crying. "I'm so discouraged! I don't know what else to do. Will I ever get better!?" After three years of fighting a medical condition the doctor just told her no progress had been made in the last six months of treatments. Alternative treatment was needed that might have more severe side effects.
Great men of God with healing ministries had prayed for her. Thousands had prayed for Angie through our ministry. A string of doctors had failed to yield any position results. When hope is deferred, the psalmist says, the heart becomes sick. During these seasons, we can only do one thing. We must hang onto whatever faith we have to get through each day and entrust our lives to Him. "Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior" (Hab 3:17-18).
When faith doesn't see results it challenges what we believe. We must pray as Job prayed: "Teach me what I cannot see" (Job 34:32). God says there is a purpose in everything we go through. Later that day Angie talked to a friend who once had the same issues, but was now better. "Angie, God is going to reveal things to you through this season of adversity that you would never receive had you not gone through this. This is part of your calling even though Satan is the instrument. God is always bigger than Satan's afflictions."
Our greatest tests come when we cannot see positive results from our faith and obedience. In such cases we must die to our expectations and entrust them to our Lord.
***
Peace out!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Chillax.
I haven't blogged for so long cos i've nothing to say! hahahahaahaha...
how funny is that? I've nothing to tell u la Mr. Blog. I can't even remember what i named my blog. So yea... it's Mr. Blog for now.
Anyways, let's see... i've got tues and wed off! woot! So happy... but then i'm working on 25th and 31st. How sian is that? Omg... but pay is damn good la. But i don't want the pay... i want my freedom! lol. oh wells...
Also, recently Mah bought me Sims 3 (real version this time cos the last one from msia didn't work. lol) so i've been simming! woot... maybe that's y my brains not working alr. Just control ppl's lives. woot.. i'm a control freak man.. and i'm loving it! hahahahaha... shit.
Ok i'm talking crap and shall not waste time and space here. Ciao for now. But just to tell u Mr. Blog that i am fine and dandy and that i have not forgotten u. Will talk to u again soon yea!
And shit, i loev gossip girl! So exciting but streaming it sucks man!! Urgh!
how funny is that? I've nothing to tell u la Mr. Blog. I can't even remember what i named my blog. So yea... it's Mr. Blog for now.
Anyways, let's see... i've got tues and wed off! woot! So happy... but then i'm working on 25th and 31st. How sian is that? Omg... but pay is damn good la. But i don't want the pay... i want my freedom! lol. oh wells...
Also, recently Mah bought me Sims 3 (real version this time cos the last one from msia didn't work. lol) so i've been simming! woot... maybe that's y my brains not working alr. Just control ppl's lives. woot.. i'm a control freak man.. and i'm loving it! hahahahaha... shit.
Ok i'm talking crap and shall not waste time and space here. Ciao for now. But just to tell u Mr. Blog that i am fine and dandy and that i have not forgotten u. Will talk to u again soon yea!
And shit, i loev gossip girl! So exciting but streaming it sucks man!! Urgh!
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Hi-Low Milk
Today i had a Hi-Low Milk day...
I wentto work as usual then was supposed to meet my friend after work which is like 11.30am but she didn't pick up. Anyways, i met Mah for lunch so that was good =) Then, i bought his Christmas present already. I'm so happy!!! I'm like so excited to give him his Chriastmas present... i can't wait! So that was a definate high... I got him a car model kit of the car he's going to buy - White Evo VII. I hope he doesn't change his mind tho. But yea i know he likes that car. Wee!!!! I'm super excited man.... then at about 3pm... my friend told me she's not meeting me alr. We were supposed to watch movie with anotehr friend in the evening. So i cancelled movie and now i'm home chilling. It's not a bad thing tho.. but i kinda waited since like 11.30 for her? She didn't pick up cos she overslept. tsk tsk.. lucky i made good use of my time =)
Anyways, there's another thing i wanted to blog about. But i forgot what already man. Hmm... OH YES!!!! MAH RECENTLY BOUGHT ME SIMS 3~!!! This time is was the original one cos the last time he went to msia and bought me, the CD Key cannot work! Even the stupid generator cannot generate a key that can work. So damn dumb... so yea... I'm so excited that i'm gonna play it soon. WEEE!!!!!
Also, i got my friend (the one that ditched me today) a job like just now. She will be starting training tom if she can make it. She never ans phone again lo... oh i forgot to mention that she couldnt meet me cos she's meeting her family at 5pm. But yea.. abit late to tell me after oversleeping and making me wait for 3.5hrs right? All good tho, i get to chillax at home. So many photos to upload man... gg!
Also, hope i do good at work tom. Stress!!! =) Learning coffee already... hehe..
I wentto work as usual then was supposed to meet my friend after work which is like 11.30am but she didn't pick up. Anyways, i met Mah for lunch so that was good =) Then, i bought his Christmas present already. I'm so happy!!! I'm like so excited to give him his Chriastmas present... i can't wait! So that was a definate high... I got him a car model kit of the car he's going to buy - White Evo VII. I hope he doesn't change his mind tho. But yea i know he likes that car. Wee!!!! I'm super excited man.... then at about 3pm... my friend told me she's not meeting me alr. We were supposed to watch movie with anotehr friend in the evening. So i cancelled movie and now i'm home chilling. It's not a bad thing tho.. but i kinda waited since like 11.30 for her? She didn't pick up cos she overslept. tsk tsk.. lucky i made good use of my time =)
Anyways, there's another thing i wanted to blog about. But i forgot what already man. Hmm... OH YES!!!! MAH RECENTLY BOUGHT ME SIMS 3~!!! This time is was the original one cos the last time he went to msia and bought me, the CD Key cannot work! Even the stupid generator cannot generate a key that can work. So damn dumb... so yea... I'm so excited that i'm gonna play it soon. WEEE!!!!!
Also, i got my friend (the one that ditched me today) a job like just now. She will be starting training tom if she can make it. She never ans phone again lo... oh i forgot to mention that she couldnt meet me cos she's meeting her family at 5pm. But yea.. abit late to tell me after oversleeping and making me wait for 3.5hrs right? All good tho, i get to chillax at home. So many photos to upload man... gg!
Also, hope i do good at work tom. Stress!!! =) Learning coffee already... hehe..
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Results!
It's so funny how during house church on thurs they prayed for good results for me. Not sure if it was too late cos results were out on Friday but we prayed anyways. And the funny thing is, after all the prayers.... i received a random sms from school on my results! hahahahahaha...
yea yea... so what is it already? I got same as last sem (Hd, D, D, C) !!! So lame man! I didn't know how to feel like happy or not? I'm alw feeling like its ok only.. so usually no reaction but apparently everyone around me was super rejoicing and happy for me. Even Mah said he was proud of me.. but i dunno man. I feel like ok only. Until recently when i learnt about my friends' results. I've this friend Kynan smsed me from sg just to ask me abt it... i feel ashamed to tell him cos he was rooting for all HDs and we were aiming not to get a C. Anyways, I did better than him!!! I can't believe it... he's like the best among everyone like the real smartarse with really good grades and stuff! I can't believe it... and apparently, among all my friends i had the best results... haven't known someone who did better than me yet. So then i realised that my results are actually not bad! But i wanna give glory to God cos i really couldn't have done it. Really. He is sooooo gracious!!! I am also glad cos i've another friend from church whom i hang with also views me as a role model and feels challenged to study smart and play hard too. Yea and ppl tell me she looks up to me n stuff so scoring well had an impact on her since she parties with me too So you see how God brigns glory to himself thru me... i'm happy =)
Ooh, yesterday i went for house inspection and they are all cheaper and nearer to school than my current one! I'm so happy.. shall make a decision by end of the week and "chope" the new place first! Yay! =) But thinking about packing and repacking is just sick! But yea.. wee!!! =) At least i don't have to put up with shit... but i guess i had to learn some stuff from living in poor conditions anyways.
Also, it is so retarded cos i had work at 6.30am today and my came earlier than scheduled so i missed it then i took a cab on impulse and as my cab drove away, my tram came. Also, on the way back home i missed the tram while crossing the road again! Grr... and half my pay today went to cab fare. URGH!!! If i took the second tram, i'd still be early can!! Y i so kan cheong for what!!!
Anyways, just want to mention also that I miss Dish and Hodel. Haven't heard much from them since they left... =S
So sian.. my melb friends having a gathering/party in singapore without me. =S
yea yea... so what is it already? I got same as last sem (Hd, D, D, C) !!! So lame man! I didn't know how to feel like happy or not? I'm alw feeling like its ok only.. so usually no reaction but apparently everyone around me was super rejoicing and happy for me. Even Mah said he was proud of me.. but i dunno man. I feel like ok only. Until recently when i learnt about my friends' results. I've this friend Kynan smsed me from sg just to ask me abt it... i feel ashamed to tell him cos he was rooting for all HDs and we were aiming not to get a C. Anyways, I did better than him!!! I can't believe it... he's like the best among everyone like the real smartarse with really good grades and stuff! I can't believe it... and apparently, among all my friends i had the best results... haven't known someone who did better than me yet. So then i realised that my results are actually not bad! But i wanna give glory to God cos i really couldn't have done it. Really. He is sooooo gracious!!! I am also glad cos i've another friend from church whom i hang with also views me as a role model and feels challenged to study smart and play hard too. Yea and ppl tell me she looks up to me n stuff so scoring well had an impact on her since she parties with me too So you see how God brigns glory to himself thru me... i'm happy =)
Ooh, yesterday i went for house inspection and they are all cheaper and nearer to school than my current one! I'm so happy.. shall make a decision by end of the week and "chope" the new place first! Yay! =) But thinking about packing and repacking is just sick! But yea.. wee!!! =) At least i don't have to put up with shit... but i guess i had to learn some stuff from living in poor conditions anyways.
Also, it is so retarded cos i had work at 6.30am today and my came earlier than scheduled so i missed it then i took a cab on impulse and as my cab drove away, my tram came. Also, on the way back home i missed the tram while crossing the road again! Grr... and half my pay today went to cab fare. URGH!!! If i took the second tram, i'd still be early can!! Y i so kan cheong for what!!!
Anyways, just want to mention also that I miss Dish and Hodel. Haven't heard much from them since they left... =S
So sian.. my melb friends having a gathering/party in singapore without me. =S
Friday, December 4, 2009
God <3s Me!
I've been house hunting of late and wanna thank God that yesterday's house church was awesome and that I am going to inspect a few houses soon that are cheaper and nearer to school! Awesome shits! I know.. i'm so lazy that i can't accept houses further away but y not rite? woot woot!!!!
Update again later.
And special mention to Ber also for alw encouraging me and commenting on my blog. wee!! =)
Update again later.
And special mention to Ber also for alw encouraging me and commenting on my blog. wee!! =)
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