Michael Jackson Goes to Hell

Andre and I were talking about MJ's death yesterday and i commented that he was going to hell. Then Andre asked me about why I was so sure about that and I explained that I believe its cos he doesn't know God i.e. is not a christian and cannot go to heaven.

Andre then clarified and asked me if he was going to hell. The painful truth was that he is until he receives Jesus in his heart.

Telling him that really highlighted the truth, gravity and urgency of saving souls from the pits of hell. It was such a hard thing to say that yea, you are going to hell. Shit. It kinda scared me a bit.

Andre then brought it up today again that I think he's going to hell. Hearing about this makes me get all jittery. I don't want my friends to go to hell. =( It was quite a harsh conversation tho... but i hope it got him thinking.

To those who are praying for family and friends, keep praying for them and interceding. Victory is ours in Christ Jesus! Don't give up cos we are their link to see God and keep working on our salvation. Hopefully our salvation may lead others to that narrow path too.

Right.

I am right! Period came today. It is the hormones la i told you!
Gee... i feel like i'm menopausing already.

Great!

Lone Ranger

did you watch the hangover? It's sooo funny! I'm a lone ranger wolf.. and now you join the pack... and we can go together... and you join the pack... hahahahaha!

Today I freaking owned my paper!!! Or so i think... cos this subject always makes u think that u own it but in the end the results still not as good one. kns! but im sooo happy la! i got out of the exam hall early. even my friend texted me after the exam asking me how the hell i finished the paper so fast! lol!

then at the train station, this guy from red cross even noticed that i was in a a chirpy mood. i guess there was a skip in my step. wee! I felt so free i went to chadstone to watch a movie by myself today! Caught The Proposal with Ryan Reynolds in it!!! WOO! I super love him... guess what is his name in the movie? hahahahahahaha! I was am chioing to myself. lol!

After that i had lunch by myself where i really spaced out then did some shopping then went to meet andre in school. Was really cool how i spent time by myself today. i just really felt like it... and i kinda enjoyed that =) I had to get out of the mall just to stop myself from spending man!

Then Andre and I had Pizza... and while waiting, we played Street Fighter. So cool man! Super long nvr play already! =)

Now, i'm gonna chill a bit more before i start studying again.
Jia You!!!!!

Crushed.

2 Corinthians 4:8-10
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

I've never been this upset in ages. It's ok...

dePERessed

I don't know y this is getting into me so much. It's not like it's the first time i'm having exams right? But i feel so depressed that i feel like crying and there's no one here. I found myself giving calls of desperation to God and the frustrating thing is i don't even know what to ask for! Comfort maybe? But from what?

I'm not stressed with studying or anything. I kinda know my stuff already. Maybe i need to go out for awhile. Get some fresh air. This is torturous and agonising. Having to stay within these 4 walls. I've been entertaining myself with fb that i'm so sick of it now!

1 more week to go. Soon soon and i can get out of here! I seriously don't know what's wrong with me man. I think it's the staying in isolation that's getting and eating into me slowly but surely. I feel like a little part of me is dying everyday.

It reminds me of the prisoners of war in don't know Korea or Japan who experienced this kind of treatment - confinement within 4 walls with excellent food and nutrition but no human contact. Slowly, the soldiers die. Literally a lonely death. I think that would be the ultimate punishment for me.

I'm getting emo already. Y am I being so negative right? Hormonal imbalance la. Lol.. realise that I always blame it on that. Haha.. that's quite funny. Oh no. I'm pathetic. Laughing at my own jokes cos there's no one here to tell me better jokes for me to laugh at. -_- (learnt this face from Yeronn. Haha.. the sian face)

Peace out.
-_-
(haha. again!)

Procrastination

Today's devotion was on Procrastination. Lol! Exactly what I've been doing and guilty of! To reinforce the Rhema word, i read another article about how God uses His word to speak to us. It is the Rhema word for me today.

What to do? Maybe I should plan a schedule for the day and fulfill it. My studying days are empty and such a drag! How to stay at home whole day and read and memorise and talk to myself? I'm literally wilting here.. Its so pathetic i gotta play music just to feel like something's going on or at least someone's talking. Urgh.

And here I am talking to Mr. Blog. I even forgot what's my blog's name already. Didn't I mention earlier that I named Mr. Blog? What name again? Forgot already. And i just ate memory pills.

pfft!

PER-Severe

I almost cannot tahan already.
I everyday stay at home study. I don't even have much to study man... haha.. action only. Like i only can study 2 hours a day. Cos i'm so bored with it and so distracted it takes me 3 hours to settle down before i study, 4 hours to do one chapter and 2 hours break. Not inclusive dinner time. By the time i finish my second chap, time to slp!

Brain dead man! I'm sooo bored and restless now. I don't wanna slp... and i've nothing to do. How meaningless is life?

I don't know how long i can tahan! Gotta PERsevere until next Tues man! At least Sunday can come out go church. =S

Maybe i'd be too brain dead to party also... grr...

Looking forward to the good times ahead!

He Loves You More Than I Ever Can

Today i was reading Our Daily Bread when God encouraged me with this reading: http://www.rbc.org/devotionals/our-daily-bread/2009/06/23/devotion.aspx

God loves His people more than we ever can. Sometimes we feel burdened for the lost and the unsaved but that's just a fraction of God's heart. Isn't it great that we can partner with God to win souls?

It was really cool cos last night i was just praying and today's devotion was on this topic. Coolness! Salvation is His!

Amen.

Church 101

Today Charlene came to live expedition with me! Woohoo!!!
So happy.... she didn't even fall asleep! And she said she felt it was better than Planet Shakers! hahaha... like seriously? lol.. so funny la!

Had a good time with her... had awesome lunch and shopping too!

Back to hit the books now. Sian~! PERsevere man!!!!

Brothers

Spoke to my bro on Friday midnight to wish him happy bday. I think its the longest phone conversation we've ever had. It's cool too cos this time, he actually wants to talk to me! Like he got away from his friends and stuff to talk to me properly. Haha! I think i do miss him. haha. Its so sweet that he wants to buy me a ticket back at the end of the year but can only afford a one-way. Aww... so sweet huh my little brudder? haha.. actually, i've kinda settled in my heart that its ok if i stay in aussie and not go back. It's ok la... don't go then don't go lo. Maybe God has other plans for me. I'll prob find a job and do summer school so that i can relac next sem and work at the same time too.

Also, it's strange cos Andre really reminds me of Yeronn. Even mother said that when she came over and i didnt even say anything! Its funny cos Andre does so many things that reminds me of Yeronn. Even the way we play and ridicule each other... so cool huh! God really gave me another same set of friends that really reminds me of the ones back home =) I'm so gonna get shit when i move in with the guys. I gotta think twice man. My quiet times alone is all gonna go.... =S

Anyways, we'll see how at the end of the year la. Still got time right?

Addiction?

Recently, i've been craving and wanting to eat sweet stuff. That should be normal right. But i've discovered that while studying, i'm thinking of having ice cream all the time and its getting pretty difficult to curb that craving. I feel really affected by it. Like my mind is always thinking about it and i feel uncomfortable not eating it. I want it! I want something sweet. No, i actually just want ice cream.

Today's the first day i've not had ice cream. I will stick to that and slp soon.

Y am i feeling this way? Is this growing to an addiction or is it just purely an innocent love for it?

I feel the ice queen from within breaking out. Ok, faster go slp! Ka kin zhao ah!

Show Me the Way

A friend just told me about asking God about the way. Y do we need to ask Him when He says that HE IS THE WAY! So just follow Jesus and you are on your way. Such enlightenment!

Jesus also says come to me you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest. So it's not like we're walking behind Jesus and following him from the back... but Jesus has so kindly extended himself to welcome us to go to him. He says come to me. How awesome can God be? We are not alone walking but as you draw neigh to Him, he draw neighs to you. Yes, God of all universe does take steps toward you. You take a step, he shows you the cross - steps he took for you.

This reminded me about the salvations that I'm praying for. All they need is to take a step. Knowingly or not, they will eventually see the cross and hopefully, open their hearts then. For now, maybe if i keep taking the step forward and have enough influence, they might just follow suit without even knowing that they are following me in taking steps toward the cross. By the time they realise it, they are engulfed in God's love and awesomeness. Wow. Am i dreaming already? This is the vision i see.

Woohoo! =) God cares for us. Care for others.

Mah-keting

Next paper up is Marketing.

Locked up in this prison cell again. This time, i've another visiting bird - lynette tan! =) It's been wonderful having her around. At least i get to talk to someone. The last time when i was khooped up at home for law paper, i didnt talk to anyone like verbally for full days! The only communication was online and that wasn't real communication. I like to verbalise stuff if u havent noticed. So its great that when she comes home at night, i get to verbalise my day instead of typing it in blogspot. She's not home now so that's y i'm here. hehe!

Anyhooz, as much as i'm studying marketing, alot of people has come to know of mah-keting and are studying it too. You know what, i think its cool. Its all family anyways. I hope. Can be real stressful this subject at times when everything is thrown at you. So many questions, so much to study and not to mention spot questions. I really hope i pass. Well don't know yet till the test comes!

Pray for me peeps!

Pre-Exam

I've finished my ice cream faster than ever. Time to buy new tub tomorrow for the next paper. And, since this week i've not visited the gym i'm going after my paper. Gym gear to exam hall. Nice.

Today went to school to do revision with the gang. Then got home-delivered dinner and some pre-exam pampering. Nice.

Now, stop procrastinating already and start work before Lynette comes later. Nice.

Hopefully, tomorrow's paper will be... Nice.

More Casualties

I've been losing and breaking my jewellry ever since i got here!
ok, whats new right? But its darn irritating!!!
Today yet another casualty... lost one side of my diamonte stud. Sian man.. i lost the other bigger one then i went to buy a smaller one.. now, i lost the smaller one also! So both different size!
Then my other necklace, i broke the metal piece connecting to the pendant. Sian.. then my bracelet the clasp broke! all cannot fix one lo.. my other earring also spoil already. so sad. i like that one lo...
then my belt also lost.. the butterfly one. so sian!!!
Also, both my flats are spoiling cos the soles are dropping out. Then my superglue the cap is stuck so i cannot use it! Also lost my hairtie. Need to buy more.
Y like that? At least my clothes are not malfunctioning.. oh wait, there is one. I bought this coat then i put in washing machines then now the fabric spoil... got alot of small balls of cotton stuff. so its all furry and weird. geez. then also dunno y some of my clothes got like insect bites.. like dunno what come and eat my clothes then leave a whole leh!! what's that man? so gross! its the closet monster!
so far the only thing that is still good are my underwears. =(((

sadness.

Testimony Part 2

Testimony is about my house.
Landlady called today to tell me that a girl will vacate on 30 Jun!!!

I think this is soo awesome! Thanks to all who have prayed for me. I really appreciate it! I really think God has answered my prayers and it really is a miracle too. Here's why:

1. I've been looking all over for a house and nothing... NOTHING comes close to being an OK house.

2. I asked for a house nearer to school than where I already am. And i'm already living in school hostel. Where else is nearer?

3. When i went down for inspection, the room that i was supposed to inspect was already taken! But i checked out the other rooms anyways cos the landlady doesn't know when the other people are gonna vacate.

4. even if they vacate, it might not be by July. Also, bcos of the uncertainty, the landlady didn't want to advertise.

Also, this house-hunting thing is added stress on me especially during exam period. Gotta search and filter for houses, call them up and go down to inspect and get disappointed every time!

Against all odds, God has blessed me. And I know this is the house I am to be in... i prayed for it and for his peace to come upon me before i went. And i was satisfied with it =)

Praise God!
Seek ye first His kingdom and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.


Another thing is, Char and I played photohunt on the Barry machine and we won $8 from it!!! So happy!!!! =))))

Facebook

As much as facebook has destroyed my life, the service provider here has granted me free access to surf it till August! I can't believe it. So that means that I can upload pictures!! I've got soo much uploading to do, I'm going to bomb everyone's facebook like i did the last time at multiply. Wee!!! But of course, that will be after exams when I am actually free. Now, i'm busy studying. Woot! That's actually nice to say.

Also, i've gotten sore throat immediately from eating a huge spoonful of risotto drenched in tabasco and chilli flakes for a free lunch. Water cannot be consumed as well. And because of that, I've also developed a cough. Way to go Per. You are the most retarded kid!

Speaking of which, i wanna eat some ice cream now. I bought this ice cream called Weis. Soooo good!!! =) Mmmmm..

Testimony

Omg. Unbelievable! I achieved my best score ever on bejewelled! I've never gotten 50k medal and now i've achieved 175k! I'm so elated...

The other thing is, the inspection was good. I'm really keen on this new house at 697 Dandenong Road but the landlady has yet to confirm when the tenants can move out. I need to move in by 1 July. Pray that they can get the hell out by then and that she informs me by Monday =) Woo!!

Thanks to all who have prayed. You are my dear life support!

I'm still so happy abt my high score. lol. Nirvana is here when i get 200k. Omg.

Don't say i play so much ok... today was a productive day of study too! =) Yay for today! =)

gonna have some ice cream later. =)))

Verse of the Day

From the rising of the sun to its going down the LORD's name is to be praised.
-Psalm 113:3

Today God woke me up at 12pm. And I am so fresh. Awesome! =)

Seek ye first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.

Will have an awesome day ahead. I feel a testimony brewing. Shall report it later =)

TGIF - Remedy for Depression

i just checked my email and this is the reading for today. Super appropriate! =)

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Remedy for Depression
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Wednesday, June 03 2009

"To console those who mourn in Zion, to give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness" (Isa 61:2-3 NKJV).
A 1988 article in Psychology Today reported on an experiment involving 1700 women under stress. The women participated in various projects that involved helping other people. Within 30 days, 85 percent of the women reported that they had been relieved of stress symptoms that included "stress-related disorders such as headaches, voice loss and even pain accompanying lupus and multiple sclerosis."*

I suspect many people could save thousands of dollars on therapy and antidepressants if they would just take time to serve others. The best way to get beyond our pain is to get outside of it. I discovered this in my own journey through a particular dark time. I decided to serve others even though I was in great emotional pain. This had a remarkable positive effect on my emotional state.

When we refocus our attention on the needs of others when we ourselves are in turmoil, it allows the burden of our circumstance to be removed from us. The more one focuses on their own problem the more likely you are to become depressed.

Isaiah understood a principle that is still valid today. If you find yourself depressed because of a circumstance in your life, take Isaiah's advice-begin to praise the Lord in spite of the circumstances you see. Then you will see the spirit of heaviness begin to be lifted.


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Time to start serving and worshipping Him! =)

D. Call

I just came back from house inspection. I've been inspecting houses everyday and they are all so gross. I'm getting really tired and i don't know why it is really draining emotionally as well. How can all the houses I see be so disgusting? Maybe that's y ppl wanna move out. Just going to these places everyday really destroys my joy. It really is painful man... i also dunno y i'm getting emo. Maybe period coming.

I'm feeling really distressed right now. I gotta make a decision by this weekend and Law exam is also not making things any easier. Plus, the bad grades. I bought myself 2 pints of ice cream.

Currently listening to How Great is our God.

As you will Lord. Lead me to a place where I can bless.
I can't run already, totally need your strength.
You are faithful, your joy is my strength.
Always you're with me, your hand will lead me.
My trust in your hand.
You are faithful.
(Ok, fine i got this from a song but i think its speaking to me right now)

I can't wait to go church this Sunday. I think i really need it. =(
Low morale. Reminds me of the Sims. When the environment sucks, the mood totally is down. Now i appreciate what I have. But too bad its too expensive.

Drown my Sorrows

Its saddening. I got back my Law assignment today expecting to get good grades cos we put so much effort in it. When my tutor said the Head of Law was marking the paper, i knew i'm out for failure. The results were appalling and disappointing.
I didn't fail per se but in my own standards, it is considered failure. Ok la... its close to fail ok. Sian!

The assignment i put in the most i get the worst grade. The assigment i put in shit i got high distinction. What's wrong with me sia? I think it's law. It hates me. That's y i don't like it. But since its my first paper, i will learn to love it then secretly hate it later when i'm done with it. I will ditch that SOAB. Just kidding la. I not so aggro one. But i can't wait till its over.

For now, i'll be writing love notes to my beloved commercial law.
Keep the love Per!

Twix

Omg... im studying now and am still thinking about how awesome the Twix tasted in my mouth! It was sooo satisfying! =S

Think i'll head to sleep. At least i can deceive myself and my stomach into eating one. =S Miserable!

Feel Good Monday

Waiting for lecture to start. We headed to the library to do a little bit of studying just to feel good. I read the first line from my Law textbook. *beep beep* Sms came... read it again. Don't understand so asked my friend. Read it again. Random thoughts of chocolate flooded my head. By this time, i'm onto my fourth line when the taste of caramel and chocolate flooded my mouth. I'm thinking of the gold wrapper and fingers of chocolate coated biscuits with caramel crunching under my teeth. The sweetness and gooey texture of caramel on my tongue. I need a feel good yummy to help me with the feel good act of studying in the library.

WAH. TAK BOLEH TAHAN AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went to Coles to buy myself some TWIX. By that time, lecture start alr. Was the most satisfying thing ever! It tasted so much better than i last remembered. Awesome shit!!!! So happy.

Also, bought 5 packs of mini chips just in case. =)

Don't worry, i'm going gym tomorrow. Will make sure that eveyone can recognise me when I come back. Scully go church ppl ask me fill in visitor card. MALU man!!!