New Season's Greeting

This is a new season for me. God's not letting me slack anymore. I really need to step up my game now... relac too much alr. I need to press in. Sigh. Hard work again... i need to take that lazy bone out.

Anyway, i'm soooo happy cos i just met this guys called Tim thru totally random chance. It's like this... we had a clan lunch party on Sat and i saw my friend Nina which i got to know thru Mah's colleague James which is Nina's bf. She was dragged there by another friend called James (another james) which used to attend church btu has stopped since a year ago... and Nina brought her friend Tim. Confusing right? It gets crazier... so we were talking and realised that I have already met Tim last Fri cos i followed James (nina's bf) to seven cos his friend was fetching... and that friend so happened to be Tim! We didn't realise that till we were talking that we actaully kinda already met once. Funny huh! Anyways, the story is that Tim enjoeyd himself at the clan lunch... he said it was his first tiem to a church event and he followed me to chruch on Sunday which he said he really enjoyed too. It was really awesome that he came for chruch too cos the night before we were clubbing and he actually had to wake up early to come to chruch which he was actually excited abt) I was really happy cos he actually really listened very intently and i think the msg spoke to him. And he's coming to house church this Thurs and to church again on Sunday! I'm just really excited when things like these happen.. when God cause us to cross paths and be used as an instrument to stir the fire he sparked inside. I can really see the hunger growing and that God is doing something within him. I'm just really exctied.. =) Now must plan for this thurs cos im facilitating! =S stress.. last houes church of the year too!

Anyway, aunty quee lin which is the pastor's mom prayed for us on sunday and she told me that my purpose in this church or in melb is to be a catalyst. This is spot on... and it confirms what's in my heart. I see that happening too and i see mroe of it coming out in the next year.. like it will just fully explode. I am excited but scared too... i see god doing many things thru me but i have to yield unto him and not be so stubborn to run my own life. Haha.. i'm glad that aunt quee lin spoke to me... wake up call alr! hehe..

Jia you per. U can do it! =)

967 Dandenong Road.

This is my house.

Evie reminded me that this is one of the things i wanna complain! (on the side note, evie actually left a comment on my blog! lol.. =))

Ok. Back to complainning. I cannot tahan this house anymore!!! I am so embarassed to show ppl my house cos it is so shit. Even Yeronn put on fb that my house is a slum! It is actually... it is so shit. Actually i've been ok living in it till recently. I was happy that i got a place to stay and made do with what i had then i don't know which housemate came and they are so dirty!!! They leave their food in the pot in the open that the food is rotting and its stinking the kitchen! It's sooooo gross!!! And it's really bad now... i feel so disgusted i wanna puke and just run and hide in my room. Cannot come out~! =S

I feel depressed when i see the grossness of it all. And my shower the cold water knob fell out so now we are using a freaking can opener to "kiap" the knob everytime we want to turn it on. It's so annoying... and its so gross! Mould and grime everywhere.... i wanna cry alr. =(((( Like in the Sims game right, my environment bar is totally code red! GG.

I am looking to move out soon... pray i get a good and affordable house. Rent is rising... and i needa look quick! =)

2 Masters.

I wanted to blog abt my take away at church yesterday. The whole sermon didn't make sense but the offering sharing bit struck me. It was on the verse about how we can't serve both money and God. I was challenged to give out of my lack which reflects lovign others more than self. If i horde all the money to myself tho i'm poor, it means that the priority is on meeting my needs first before others and God wants me to show that i love others more than self so it is to sacrifice my needs for the benefit of others while trusting that God's provides at the same time. I am not in lack even tho it seems that i am.. but his inheritance is abundant and he never short changes! So yea, this was my take away...

The other thing is how God has been teaching me about immediate obedience. I think I have been sitting on my bum for too long. He tells me one thing and i'm always like wait la.. or maybe act dumb so i can get away with it. But God is not allowing me to do that anymore! Clearly, this morning's incident at the tram was indication of how serious God wants me to get off my bum and just obey him even if he doesn't tell me the reason of what he ask me to do. Sians. okok... jia you per! it's gonna b rewarding ok! =)

On a seperate note, i started work alr... quite tiring tho the hours are short. Oh, i also wanna say that i'm real glad my fam came down to visit. I think we all really enjoyed ourselves.. it was really fun! We did a lot of shit and they met up with Andrew too... he drove us around mornington and we had such a good time. I'm glad they liked him too.. so all's good. Also, so funny la.. Mah said my family's like me. all cheerful and stuff.. hahahaa.. so funny! =) Yea, to think of it... i think maybe we are mostly extroverted or people persons. hehehe... and wah, they all wanna go crown everyday man! retarded one!!! lol!

So i have been away from the internet for ages and now i'm back! got so much errands to run its not funny. i feel drained alr! might take a nap soon =) wee!!!

Shawty Fire Burning...

This is a bad day. I am the worst employee ever.

I need to do something abt my life. Something is wrong within me that i do not know about and it is manifesting in a ridiculous way! *sigh*

Who is that girl i see staring straight back at me?

SIMulate me 3!

Fell asleep for one hour while studying last night. Did an all-nighter and rocked up to the exam still half-prepared. Paper was ok but I know I could've done better. Don't you just hate that feeling? So I could've been more excited about exams being over. My first thought was to install the Sims 3 Mah got me from Msia... WEE!!!!! =)))

I haven't really slept the whole night and now i'm so hyped up with adrenaline to play that i don't know if i can sleep.

Also, it's been so uber crazy hot these past few days! It's not even funny!!! And here, it's not like Singapore, everywhere sheltered with AC. Torturous! And my itch is still here. Skin rotting alr.. yucks.

Anyways, exams are over... HELLO WORLD!!!!! Yay, i love everybody suddenly already! lol.. =)))

Itchy & Scratchy

I'm still itching after so many weeks! Can it be stressed? There's only one way to find out... wait till after exams! Tahan for 2 more days!!!!

Sigh, i think i've scratched out all the dead skin cells on my body already. My skin looks diseased and super gross! The itch is unbearable... have... to.... scratch... =(
I'm so sad... will get a lot of new scars. choi! Bind that in the name of Jesus!!!! Urgh.. beautiful skin is mine! heal me pls heal me... =(((

I'm totally suffering.. wanna study but my hands are busy scratching. How sia? Sleep also keep waking up to scratch! What is going on???

=S

The only consolation is finishing my exams! After which, i think i'll be too happy to even notice the itch! yay!! =)))

Dieded.

"Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain. In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat - for he grants sleep to those he loves" (Ps 127:1-2).

This verse really spoke to me today. It is all useless if we do tihngs our own way, our own power. Only strife and struggles we will find in our own way. His ways are higher than ours, He sees far beyond and knows what is to come. Surrender today to His way for He is the way the truth and the life.

Die to self daily and live in Christ fully.

Unless the LORD has his way, all is in vain. Unless you surrender yourself today, you live in vain.

The cost of vanity then is time wasted and opportunities gone!

Woot woot.

Loves Loves...

There has been few instances when i felt dejected and loveless. Maybe friendless? But there are the few that has stood by me and gave me that pat on the back i so needed.

Thanks for understanding, listening and being there. It helped me keep my chin up.

I'm really excited for exams to be over and for mother and brother to come over! I don't know what to do with them tho... so stressful but i'm kinda excited =) I keep thinking about after exams.

I totally can't wait!

Thank you Lord for also being here for me cos this time round, im super relac one corner on my laptop playing fb and streaming vids. lol! Thanks for all the prayers too... His peace is so overwhelming that when i wanna start studying, i fall asleep instead! woot woot! God is real and he is the Prince of Peace. So can't blame me for his peaceful anointings! lol!

Yay... after exams lo! ORD lo!

yea right. Anyways, i hope i have enough time to watch saw 6 this Sun or something.. wee!!! =)))

Come back soon hun. nobody to nags me to study like you do! lol.

Drawing from the Well.

Thirsty? Many die from thirst or suffer from parched lips and dry throats. The problem will only get worse if one does not drink water.

To obtain water thus requires work and effort. As we go to the well to draw (not an easy process apparently) or work hard to get money to buy water, we draw close unto Him, the giver of living water. We are then rewarded with renewed strength and refreshed again to continue a long journey. Do we then only drink when we thirst? No, we drink continually to sustain us so it is wise then to draw more and bring some water along as well so that when the dry spell comes, we can always have a supply or have drunk enough to weather through it.

As we draw close to Him, He draws close to us. As we drink of this living water, we get refreshed again and are reminded of how good he is. How he brings life to our system and how he provides us with enough to do the work of His will.

Even if today you cannot afford water or don't have access to a well, He is big enough to do a miracle and provide even from a rock! Trust in Him for He loves us and wants the best for us.

Drink from Him and never thirst again!

Hmm...

Hmmm.. i've been thinking abt this.

What does my image say and should i care? I've been sick n tired about judging eyes for a while now but who am i to blame others when they base their judgements on image? Not everyone knows me and certainly not everyone cares to find out how i really am besides making assumptions. Again, who am i to blame?

Then again, only one side of my life is published and certainly not everyone is accepting of my lifestyle here. Perhaps my responsibility does not just stop once i step down from leadership... perhaps it goes on and on bcos i am marked as a leader from before. Do i still owe people an explanation? I do what i think is right... and that friend is right, it is my relationship with God and only God can convict me if I am pleasing him or not. That is the question i ask myself.

U know Jesus hung out with sinners and so many judged him. He is the son of man, cannot hang out with this kinda ppl one... cannot go this place... cannot do that... so many things were unacceptable in the eyes of public. Jesus even defied tradition and did "work" or rather worked miracles on the Sabbath. This is against religionistic norms but working in the prompting of the Spirit. I bet Jesus would have skipped church just to go out and do the work of his father's calling. The son of man would have skipped church to save sinners, to share love... yada yada. The funny thing is, the very people who were appointed followers of God (pharisees) were the very ones that ridiculed Jesus to the point of putting Him to death. How ironic... but that was god's will for redemption.

If i were to benchmark myself against Jesus today, would i be wrong to go against societal norms and follow the spirit instead? Perhaps what i need to think about then is how closely am i hearing from God and following His instructions. Jesus heard and obeyed no matter what others said. Would i be able to do that?

That is the question.

WWJD? What can Per do?

I pray for thy word and will to be clear and the boldness to step forth in faith. Amen.