Super long never blog man. Not enough sleep already!
Praise God that I have an accommodation at the Monash Campus Site. It was the last spot and it was just for me just in time! =)
You know, i realised that there are so many things that appeal to my flesh but God has other plans for me. You see, i've been living in the city and just when i started to love the city and not hope so much to get the on-campus accommodation, God gives me on-campus. Just when i visited Planet Shakers and loving it (also cos they have a really really cool dance group), God calls me to LE.
I guess God really does have different plans for me. So far, everything that i wanted in my flesh since day 1, God did not give. But so far, i've not regretted His choice for me. He made me stay in the city first instead of giving me the campus accommodation straight also because i had to meet Charlene and I've been having so much fun with her and staying in the city which is really near everyone else. This is just one example...
I can't see how i'll like LE or campus but i'm gonna trust God and know that His plans are perfect for me. Maybe i'm really not that mainstream. Hehe..
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
He Prepares the Way
He prepares the way:
1. Aussie Dollar dropped
2. Homer, Viv and Elaine goes over
3. Many occasions of his financial providence
4. Temporary Accommodation to look for permanent place
5. Met Mom Friend's Niece, Nephew and Bro. Niece is doing first year so we set up bank account and phone together. Nephew's been here for 3 years and has been taking us around. Much of the food expenses paid for.
6. Made many new friends on the first day here (plus sri lankan guy on plane!)
7. Schedule planned out nicely.
8. Got a really cool phone no.: +61 430301339
So far there is more to come. But God has really made thsi a smooth journey for me. No need to hassle and worry because he provides and He loves me. =) Woohoo!
1. Aussie Dollar dropped
2. Homer, Viv and Elaine goes over
3. Many occasions of his financial providence
4. Temporary Accommodation to look for permanent place
5. Met Mom Friend's Niece, Nephew and Bro. Niece is doing first year so we set up bank account and phone together. Nephew's been here for 3 years and has been taking us around. Much of the food expenses paid for.
6. Made many new friends on the first day here (plus sri lankan guy on plane!)
7. Schedule planned out nicely.
8. Got a really cool phone no.: +61 430301339
So far there is more to come. But God has really made thsi a smooth journey for me. No need to hassle and worry because he provides and He loves me. =) Woohoo!
Leaving on a Jet Plane
8.15pm Terminal One, Qantas QF10
It was so many goodbyes yet it was so hard to take in everything. There was no room to think at all. It was all those personal letters and msgs that really touched me. Thank you for baring your heart with me. Really, thank you!
You know what is the most bizarre? The people I met on board. God was really with me all the way and I so know it!
This is so crazy. There was this Sri Lankan guy sitting next to me and He is doing Business Management at Monash Caulfield too! Not just that, we have soooo much in common! He drinks coke light, loves simpsons, used to play cricket (ok la, not surprising la but what are the chances that i play right?)... and we both are bad in our mother tongues! His parents do business and does real estate. Like hello? My parents too! Only diff maybe is cos he's only child. That's it.
There was also this other English Old lady sitting next to me. She is so sweet... it was a pleasure talking to her man!
Something miraculous really happened also! I dropped my that ah ma smell smell thing... i dunno what u call it. The thing u stick in your nose when its blocked. I dropped it then cannot find on the floor. I saw it roll away but i didnt know where it went. I find until i gave up... i was like.. ok la, leave it la... dun care already. Then this thought came in my mind... i was asking God to help me get it back cos i really liked it... and i told God... by faith, i'm going to look into the pocket of my bag to find it there. That means that God will retrieve the thing for me. Guess what, first thing i touched when i reached into the zip was that thing!!!!!! Sheeeeeeeeeetttssss man!
God is psycho!
It was so many goodbyes yet it was so hard to take in everything. There was no room to think at all. It was all those personal letters and msgs that really touched me. Thank you for baring your heart with me. Really, thank you!
You know what is the most bizarre? The people I met on board. God was really with me all the way and I so know it!
This is so crazy. There was this Sri Lankan guy sitting next to me and He is doing Business Management at Monash Caulfield too! Not just that, we have soooo much in common! He drinks coke light, loves simpsons, used to play cricket (ok la, not surprising la but what are the chances that i play right?)... and we both are bad in our mother tongues! His parents do business and does real estate. Like hello? My parents too! Only diff maybe is cos he's only child. That's it.
There was also this other English Old lady sitting next to me. She is so sweet... it was a pleasure talking to her man!
Something miraculous really happened also! I dropped my that ah ma smell smell thing... i dunno what u call it. The thing u stick in your nose when its blocked. I dropped it then cannot find on the floor. I saw it roll away but i didnt know where it went. I find until i gave up... i was like.. ok la, leave it la... dun care already. Then this thought came in my mind... i was asking God to help me get it back cos i really liked it... and i told God... by faith, i'm going to look into the pocket of my bag to find it there. That means that God will retrieve the thing for me. Guess what, first thing i touched when i reached into the zip was that thing!!!!!! Sheeeeeeeeeetttssss man!
God is psycho!
Valentine's
This is the best Valentine's Day ever!
I spent it with my 4 lovelies... we went to bukit timah there to have great Peranakan food and man, we were so satisfied! After that went to eat island creamery too. This is just the scratch of my great day. What made it so great was that God was so personal to me!
I woke up late to meet the girls but guess what, all the girls woke up late too (except evie who woke up super early to vacuum the floor!)! I was sooo tired so God allowed me to sleep a little more. God then blessed me with a ride to the makan place and guess what, there was no parking at all!!! Till a van got out of a lot but another blue car went into that lot! So we just wait lor... but before long, this blue car came out of the lot too! Because he P-plate so cannot parallel park! Wahahahahha!!! So it was super tight.. but the car in front also came out so that we can park properly! To add, the parking lot was right in front of the restaurant!!! (Evie pls correct me if im wrong... i cant remember liao. hahaha. Is it this one or the other one?) Anyways, we went in and normally there'd be a crowd and slow service but everything was speedy and we had seats immediately! After that we headed to the car then the car in front left like right after so that we got space to come out of the lot! Wow!!! God so good right? Right Right!?
Next was island creamery. Carpark says its full and so many cars were going in and none coming out but when we got there, there was a lot just in front of the lift landing for us! When we got in the ice cream parlour, there were absolutely no seats! This time, we knew God will do something. True enough, a group got up as soon as we walked in but there were only 4 chairs for 5 people! As if God heard us, the next table stood up and walked off! Wow.... how awesome is my God? This Valentine's he really was around to shower His love and to ensure that we dont forget his love like that. So we were kinda late for church but God ensured that we could finish out little lifegroup Valentine's project within 20 min before service man!
During workship, i felt God's love so i started to cry. Evie and Dawn were so comforting and so oozing with love that i continued crying. Sigh. I love u girls so much!
After service they also threw me a farewell party. I was so touched... really cried sia! =(
They re-enacted scenes of me... then got DH and ice cream lo! lol... super funny.. Ju really did a good job la. haha... Then they showed a video montage. I really didn't know i so drama one. lol!
After that Angie shared her thoughts, I shared my thoughts and Yeronn did too. I worried for him sia, emo kid. Hehe... so sweet la this boy.
Then htey prayed for me... as usual Evie cried but when i saw Ju cry, I really broke. Wow.. i love these girls la!
Yeronn also did a video interview for me. I really appreciate his heart into this and to all those who has organised and planned this for me. It really helped me to deal with my emotions and face with going away.
Truly, this the best Valentine's. So much love going around! =)
I spent it with my 4 lovelies... we went to bukit timah there to have great Peranakan food and man, we were so satisfied! After that went to eat island creamery too. This is just the scratch of my great day. What made it so great was that God was so personal to me!
I woke up late to meet the girls but guess what, all the girls woke up late too (except evie who woke up super early to vacuum the floor!)! I was sooo tired so God allowed me to sleep a little more. God then blessed me with a ride to the makan place and guess what, there was no parking at all!!! Till a van got out of a lot but another blue car went into that lot! So we just wait lor... but before long, this blue car came out of the lot too! Because he P-plate so cannot parallel park! Wahahahahha!!! So it was super tight.. but the car in front also came out so that we can park properly! To add, the parking lot was right in front of the restaurant!!! (Evie pls correct me if im wrong... i cant remember liao. hahaha. Is it this one or the other one?) Anyways, we went in and normally there'd be a crowd and slow service but everything was speedy and we had seats immediately! After that we headed to the car then the car in front left like right after so that we got space to come out of the lot! Wow!!! God so good right? Right Right!?
Next was island creamery. Carpark says its full and so many cars were going in and none coming out but when we got there, there was a lot just in front of the lift landing for us! When we got in the ice cream parlour, there were absolutely no seats! This time, we knew God will do something. True enough, a group got up as soon as we walked in but there were only 4 chairs for 5 people! As if God heard us, the next table stood up and walked off! Wow.... how awesome is my God? This Valentine's he really was around to shower His love and to ensure that we dont forget his love like that. So we were kinda late for church but God ensured that we could finish out little lifegroup Valentine's project within 20 min before service man!
During workship, i felt God's love so i started to cry. Evie and Dawn were so comforting and so oozing with love that i continued crying. Sigh. I love u girls so much!
After service they also threw me a farewell party. I was so touched... really cried sia! =(
They re-enacted scenes of me... then got DH and ice cream lo! lol... super funny.. Ju really did a good job la. haha... Then they showed a video montage. I really didn't know i so drama one. lol!
After that Angie shared her thoughts, I shared my thoughts and Yeronn did too. I worried for him sia, emo kid. Hehe... so sweet la this boy.
Then htey prayed for me... as usual Evie cried but when i saw Ju cry, I really broke. Wow.. i love these girls la!
Yeronn also did a video interview for me. I really appreciate his heart into this and to all those who has organised and planned this for me. It really helped me to deal with my emotions and face with going away.
Truly, this the best Valentine's. So much love going around! =)
Thursday, February 12, 2009
...
...
This describes how i feel...
so sian...
i hate packing...
application for accommodation got rejected...
i wan to play game but no time to waste...
i am flying in 3 days...
nothing much has been settled yet...
so sian...
God, please help me take care of everything. I trust you'll provide the best!
This describes how i feel...
so sian...
i hate packing...
application for accommodation got rejected...
i wan to play game but no time to waste...
i am flying in 3 days...
nothing much has been settled yet...
so sian...
God, please help me take care of everything. I trust you'll provide the best!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Blessings
Oh goodness i realised i didn't blog about this.
I've been stressed and sian about the whole looking for accommodation thing right so I kinda fasted for 10 days - no meat, that is. Straight after dinner when I broke fast, I received a phone call from Evie about a really cool place! God's been just making everything so smooth that i absolutely have peace. No more stress! Woo... This is His promise to me that He will work everything out. I just have to sit back and watch Him perform. So far, it's been quite amusing!
I was introduced to Christine and Lindy by Evie and these girls have been such a blessing! I am currently arranging to room with Lindy! Woohoo... the first time we chatted on MSN, I already liked her and we wanted to room together. Cool huh.
Today was supposed to send in bank statement cos other people also wanted this apartment so we must faster faster but my mom's overseas! The cool thing is, she's got a copy at home! Woohoo... cool ah? Now, gotta see if the agent will give us this apartment. If not, must look for another place then must move here and there again. Shit.
After touch down, I got so many shit to settle. Urgh. Ok, slowly slowly. Don't think so much ok?
I also want to thank God for blessing me with money. On Fri we celebrated Dawn and Cheronne's bday and we gave them some cash. Thought I'd be done for already but the next day, some awesome fabuous people blessed me back with $400 in an ang bao! Then last night, my dad put $50 on my table!! Woohoo...... oh shit, i was trying to calculate how many percent increase is that but i realised i forgot how to calculate that. My math sooo useless! How? This is Pri sch stuff man! What's the use of calculators now? Shit... ok, no fret.... just chillax. The point is, God really blesses many folds over when you are faithful with your tithes and offering and with the resources he places in your hands. =)
I'm now hoping to get more credit units exempted so that I can cut short my stay there and come back! We shall see ok Mr. Blog?
I've been stressed and sian about the whole looking for accommodation thing right so I kinda fasted for 10 days - no meat, that is. Straight after dinner when I broke fast, I received a phone call from Evie about a really cool place! God's been just making everything so smooth that i absolutely have peace. No more stress! Woo... This is His promise to me that He will work everything out. I just have to sit back and watch Him perform. So far, it's been quite amusing!
I was introduced to Christine and Lindy by Evie and these girls have been such a blessing! I am currently arranging to room with Lindy! Woohoo... the first time we chatted on MSN, I already liked her and we wanted to room together. Cool huh.
Today was supposed to send in bank statement cos other people also wanted this apartment so we must faster faster but my mom's overseas! The cool thing is, she's got a copy at home! Woohoo... cool ah? Now, gotta see if the agent will give us this apartment. If not, must look for another place then must move here and there again. Shit.
After touch down, I got so many shit to settle. Urgh. Ok, slowly slowly. Don't think so much ok?
I also want to thank God for blessing me with money. On Fri we celebrated Dawn and Cheronne's bday and we gave them some cash. Thought I'd be done for already but the next day, some awesome fabuous people blessed me back with $400 in an ang bao! Then last night, my dad put $50 on my table!! Woohoo...... oh shit, i was trying to calculate how many percent increase is that but i realised i forgot how to calculate that. My math sooo useless! How? This is Pri sch stuff man! What's the use of calculators now? Shit... ok, no fret.... just chillax. The point is, God really blesses many folds over when you are faithful with your tithes and offering and with the resources he places in your hands. =)
I'm now hoping to get more credit units exempted so that I can cut short my stay there and come back! We shall see ok Mr. Blog?
Struggle from the Past
I was clearing my stuff when I found this scribble of a Poem dated 24/04/06. I don't even know what I was writing about man but here goes...
I am lost in the world of aimlessness;
But trust in you, I am found.
Though I am stuck in the realm of the mind,
my decision for my heart is ground.
O how I want to be desperate,
to want to long for you;
But these struggles to keep with disciplined effort
is such a hard thing to do.
As I walk through this valley with the enemy,
I know I will find the light.
I pray you'll show me that the foe's just me,
and give me godly insight.
Help me see that the valley was no valley,
but a mountain with the sun turned off.
Help me see you in that picture,
and the victory I must grab hold of.
No more hiding in the shadows,
No more doors to close.
But naked in the meadows
with you and my pure heart to show.
For I am not just dust from Earth's waste,
but a human spiritually empowered.
There's so much more ahead of me to chase,
I just need you to reveal the encounters.
Yes, only friendship and time will I be pleasantly surprised,
that you are so much more that I thought comprised.
You aren't just a provider, protector and best friend,
but an amazing God and an ever helping hand.
I am lost in the world of aimlessness;
But trust in you, I am found.
Though I am stuck in the realm of the mind,
my decision for my heart is ground.
O how I want to be desperate,
to want to long for you;
But these struggles to keep with disciplined effort
is such a hard thing to do.
As I walk through this valley with the enemy,
I know I will find the light.
I pray you'll show me that the foe's just me,
and give me godly insight.
Help me see that the valley was no valley,
but a mountain with the sun turned off.
Help me see you in that picture,
and the victory I must grab hold of.
No more hiding in the shadows,
No more doors to close.
But naked in the meadows
with you and my pure heart to show.
For I am not just dust from Earth's waste,
but a human spiritually empowered.
There's so much more ahead of me to chase,
I just need you to reveal the encounters.
Yes, only friendship and time will I be pleasantly surprised,
that you are so much more that I thought comprised.
You aren't just a provider, protector and best friend,
but an amazing God and an ever helping hand.
Bomb from Pakistan
It's been 2 days. Father came back on Sunday morning and i haven't spent time with him yet. It's 4.21am, 10th Feb and we're talking but i find myself typing on my blog.
I don't wanna hear it man. I think I should go sleep.. he can't sleep cos he doesn't wanna let go. It's his own mental torture that maybe he secretly likes to lament inside to feel important or something. It's sickening. I hate this.
Up to this point, its silence cos I'm typing away while he sits on the bed breeding bitterness.
I think i know y people like to smoke. They like to inhale self inflicted poison just to exhale and blow it all away thinking they've solved everything and that the winds will take everything away. Fat hope! Its the passive smokers that has to withstand the smell if they want to be near you. Its the passive smokers that die first all because they care enough to hang around you and talk you out of killing yourself. Before I choke up, I should just walk away to a place where even the winds cannot go.
In that place, I see what I want, I do what I want, I have what I want and just breeze through time before I am rudely awakened by my N73 again.
Another day befalls.
I don't wanna hear it man. I think I should go sleep.. he can't sleep cos he doesn't wanna let go. It's his own mental torture that maybe he secretly likes to lament inside to feel important or something. It's sickening. I hate this.
Up to this point, its silence cos I'm typing away while he sits on the bed breeding bitterness.
I think i know y people like to smoke. They like to inhale self inflicted poison just to exhale and blow it all away thinking they've solved everything and that the winds will take everything away. Fat hope! Its the passive smokers that has to withstand the smell if they want to be near you. Its the passive smokers that die first all because they care enough to hang around you and talk you out of killing yourself. Before I choke up, I should just walk away to a place where even the winds cannot go.
In that place, I see what I want, I do what I want, I have what I want and just breeze through time before I am rudely awakened by my N73 again.
Another day befalls.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Delay
Oh my goodness! I almost forgot that I've a blog! It's been too long.
I was sleeping when I thought about blogging. So now, i'm up writing online. Haha.. I'm such an IT idiot man!
Since i've missed out so much already, thought I'd just fill this blog in with my thoughts about leaving.
My last 2 weeks in SG was all about meeting people. This is actually the first time i'm thinking about my leaving and facing it. Time to face it Per if not, it'll come slap you on the face on Valentine's day.
Lately, i've been trying not to think about this. Guess I'm too afraid to get all emo again. I hate that! Time is really fleeting and i'm feeling it by the day. I still can't believe i'm leaving next Sun!
What will i do there? All the admin... ooooh my goodness! Let's see, gotta, settle down at a temporary apartment while i look for a permanent place, set up bank account, go enrol myself in school, unpack and pack, find my way around places, make my new home like home, shopping for stuff and its totally different from shopping for clothes... feels so much like a chore! Ok, look forward per... so much to look forward to! There'll be new places, new everything to explore! It's a whole totally new season! Woo.. Ok, that woo was fake. I hope I really have a real woo when i'm there doing chores. hahaha!
Darn, i'm still doing that thing of denial. Shit! I cant convince myself that it is finally here! urgh.. stupid girl!
Oh, last Sat i officially stepped down from leadership in church. It was something for me. My season has ended. So many things i wanted to say but didn't... haha so i guess i'll do my thanks here. I'm really so thankful for this season of leadership in church. I've grown soooo much! More than i can ever imagine... seriously! And God knew all these from the start. He knew my journey and season and prepared me all the way. He equipped me with every good thing and strength to go on. The 2 lifegroups - ACTS and Transformers are such an integral part of my growth as a leader I will never forget. They are more than just lives.. they are plans to be realised by Almighty in time to come. Just like me, No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind can know what God has in stored for those who love him. All these couldn't have been possible if not for my leaders. So kudos to Angie and Aunt Sue for being my shepherd. I really love all you people. Hahahaha... ok it sounds so funny. But it really makes me emo thinking abt my girls. Every one of them so special and sometimes during lifegroup, i really feel a fraction of how God sees them. So precious and so full of compassion it's soo amazing! Moving on, thanks so the church who provided all the right conditions for this little seed to flourish. Every investment in this church was an investment into my life. I've been so thoroughly blessed and I'm so thankful for FGA. Just like how God chooses the right parents for us, God knew this was the best church for me.
The other thing that happened which was really cool was BAPTISM! It's such a privilege to baptise Jane and Dawn. I'm amazed at how God works... and i'm so privileged to witness their growth in Christ. Way to go girls! I hope to witness a new stage of growth again when I'm back... =)
Ok, I feel much better now. Happy thoughts. Goodness, i'm doing this again! It's ok to feel sad Per... aiya. I give up. Let's face reality again another day. For not, I'm going back to my dreams where Unicorns, coud castles and pots of gold are real.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz...
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