Isaiah 53.
Who is this man that he can grow up from dry grounds, who has no physical beauty and was despised his whole life. Esteem, men did not.
SO much rejection, not much recognition.
How can one live like this?
Yet, at the end of his life he endured the last bout of his suffering. It is like all his life's suffering rolled into one event. Why should he go through this?
And who is this whose death can bring peace and whose wounds bring healing. Why would he suffer for those even not interested in his death? Y bring their iniquities unto him as well? Moreover, what has he done to deserve this? The most pure, holy and innocent was sent to the slaughter and was stricken by opression and judgement.
God have mercy on this soul! How can this be Your will oh Lord.
Through his death, glory for eternity was bestowed. Surely, the story comes to a good ending. Thank you Lord for this man has saved all our souls.
Thank you JESUS for bearing my sins and sharing your inheritance with me. Thank you for continually interceding on my behalf, that the other lost souls can come to know what you have done for them.
Most of all, thank you for your great love! There is none like you!!!
=D
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Anon Prayer.
Encountered this prayer that spoke to me during the 40 day fast.
Day 13:
Lord, help me in my waywardness; I read your words and yet do not follow them. I shut my ears to your voice and, when i do hear your voice, I do not listen to what you say. I tell others to live lives of Christian example and yet I fail again and afain to do so myself.
Father, I am unworthy of your love.
Lord, help me in my weakness; I wander from your way and follow the falsehoods of the world, chasing the illusions of success and dreams of the false happiness of riches - and yet all the while I call myself your child and servant.
Father, I am unworthy of your sacrifice.
Lord, help me to overcome my pride; I show the world my Christian face and yet, within my mind, I listen to the lies and promises of the evil one. Time andagain, I weaken and fall into sinful ways and thoughts.
Father, without you I am nothing.
Be my guide and my guardian. Takem my life and shape me upon the wheel of your world as potters shape the clay with their hands. Lord, teach me to be true.
AMEN.
Day 13:
Lord, help me in my waywardness; I read your words and yet do not follow them. I shut my ears to your voice and, when i do hear your voice, I do not listen to what you say. I tell others to live lives of Christian example and yet I fail again and afain to do so myself.
Father, I am unworthy of your love.
Lord, help me in my weakness; I wander from your way and follow the falsehoods of the world, chasing the illusions of success and dreams of the false happiness of riches - and yet all the while I call myself your child and servant.
Father, I am unworthy of your sacrifice.
Lord, help me to overcome my pride; I show the world my Christian face and yet, within my mind, I listen to the lies and promises of the evil one. Time andagain, I weaken and fall into sinful ways and thoughts.
Father, without you I am nothing.
Be my guide and my guardian. Takem my life and shape me upon the wheel of your world as potters shape the clay with their hands. Lord, teach me to be true.
AMEN.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Birds of the Air
Just wanna say that God has been good.
Was reading the bit on the captivating book where God gave John a whale and Stasi starfishes. I too asked God to give me something from him... the next morning as i stepped out of the house, this is the first thing i saw. i googled it and its a rainbow lorikeet. God must've known my favourite colour is rainbow! =)))
I knew immediately it was from God cos i asked for it and it just came. Also, wiki says its habitat is woodland areas, rainforests and coastal bushes. Why the hell were they perched on the tree opposite my house?
WOOT WOOT! =)))
God says that even the birds of the air he feeds... and now spring is here. He clothes even the lilies of the field, how much more will he provide for us, his children?
AMEN!!! =)))
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Day 5:
Isaiah 61
" 1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me;..."
To do what?
"...because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;
2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;
3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.
4And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations.
5And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.
6But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves."
What is the Gentiles? where is it referring to? So confusing...
***
Anyways, yesterday i received good news that if i move in with charlene next year, i will just have to pay $600/month just like what im paying now! Actually the timing is perfect cos Nick is going back to singapore too. hopefully i get into melbourne uni so that its nearer for me =S if not, i dunno how...
GOD PLS BRING CLARITY!
So far, the signs point to staying here.. oh yea, the other thing is that i got offered to do honours in monash... so yea =)
" 1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me;..."
To do what?
"...because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;
2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;
3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.
4And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations.
5And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.
6But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves."
What is the Gentiles? where is it referring to? So confusing...
***
Anyways, yesterday i received good news that if i move in with charlene next year, i will just have to pay $600/month just like what im paying now! Actually the timing is perfect cos Nick is going back to singapore too. hopefully i get into melbourne uni so that its nearer for me =S if not, i dunno how...
GOD PLS BRING CLARITY!
So far, the signs point to staying here.. oh yea, the other thing is that i got offered to do honours in monash... so yea =)
Monday, September 27, 2010
Day 4: "What do you want me to do for you?"
40 day fast has started and it has been super crazy hard!!!
I am fasting 1 hour of my time in the morning before i go about my day. Its so hard an i must admit that ive not been consistent and have been really tired. But the Lord is my source and my strength. Jia you!
I am fasting for a direction for next year. Should I do honours? masters? go back sg? Find work? do what? I really have no clue....
May God bring clarity as i seek him these 40 days.
******
Day 4: "What do you want me to do for you?"
Matt 20:29-21:17
- Two blind men receiving sight. Jesus asked "what do you want me to do for you?". He had compassion and healed them. Jesus at the temple in anger overturned gambling tables and proclaimed that his is the house of prayer. He then continued to heal the lame and blind and used scriptures to rebuke the pharisees who tried to discredit him.
As i read this i felt that Jesus was asking me what do i want. What do I want him to do for me? I actually don't know what i want... All i want is to have what God wants for me. What is his path for me?
I also observed that though in anger, Jesus still had compassion for those around him. He was still able to heal. Also, he had a good tactic in rebuking the pharisees. Many people will wrong you but how do you handle that situation? Use the law then leave the place to avoid further assaults?
I feel this 40 days will align my heart towards God's and eventually, i will know his will for me.
Dear God, thank you that you have given me a hope and a future that i may be confident in you and assured that my future is in your hands and that i am precious in your sight. Thank you for caring for me. I pray that you align my heart towards yours that i may know what direction to take. Clarify the situation oh God that i may know that the Lord of Lords have spoken. Give and will a desire within me that is consistent with yours as I look towards you. Guide my heart and will. At the same time, give me the compassion for others at all times and give me the wisdom to know how to rebuke. I pray for your grace and mercy. Forgive me my sins today and cleanse me from unrightousness. May you glory reign in me and may your spirit dwell peacefully within me.
Thanks for that! In the name of Jesus i pray, AMEN!
I am fasting 1 hour of my time in the morning before i go about my day. Its so hard an i must admit that ive not been consistent and have been really tired. But the Lord is my source and my strength. Jia you!
I am fasting for a direction for next year. Should I do honours? masters? go back sg? Find work? do what? I really have no clue....
May God bring clarity as i seek him these 40 days.
******
Day 4: "What do you want me to do for you?"
Matt 20:29-21:17
- Two blind men receiving sight. Jesus asked "what do you want me to do for you?". He had compassion and healed them. Jesus at the temple in anger overturned gambling tables and proclaimed that his is the house of prayer. He then continued to heal the lame and blind and used scriptures to rebuke the pharisees who tried to discredit him.
As i read this i felt that Jesus was asking me what do i want. What do I want him to do for me? I actually don't know what i want... All i want is to have what God wants for me. What is his path for me?
I also observed that though in anger, Jesus still had compassion for those around him. He was still able to heal. Also, he had a good tactic in rebuking the pharisees. Many people will wrong you but how do you handle that situation? Use the law then leave the place to avoid further assaults?
I feel this 40 days will align my heart towards God's and eventually, i will know his will for me.
Dear God, thank you that you have given me a hope and a future that i may be confident in you and assured that my future is in your hands and that i am precious in your sight. Thank you for caring for me. I pray that you align my heart towards yours that i may know what direction to take. Clarify the situation oh God that i may know that the Lord of Lords have spoken. Give and will a desire within me that is consistent with yours as I look towards you. Guide my heart and will. At the same time, give me the compassion for others at all times and give me the wisdom to know how to rebuke. I pray for your grace and mercy. Forgive me my sins today and cleanse me from unrightousness. May you glory reign in me and may your spirit dwell peacefully within me.
Thanks for that! In the name of Jesus i pray, AMEN!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Major Decisions
40-day fast is up soon and i am praying for direction in a decision. Thank you Lord for the word:
Confirming Decisions
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Friday, August 13 2010
"Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed" (Proverbs 15:22).
Confirming major decisions through the counsel of others is one way God protects us from poor decisions. This process is designed to confirm direction for which we are seeking confirmation. Paul was sensitive not to get too heavy-handed in the confirmation process though. He offered advice to others but was not the enforcer of their decisions. "And here is my advice about what is best for you in this matter"(2 Corinthians 8:10).
The requirement for efficient administration frequently requires single points of decision-making. Where there is willingness and trust to receive input, there is also humility, faith, and grace for God to work His pleasure in His servant. Where there is unwillingness, the opposite is true.
There have been times in my life where I have felt strongly about a certain issue only to receive feedback from those close to me which revealed that I was not accurate in my assessment of the situation. I have learned to yield in such situations, trusting that God is working through those in whom I am accountable.
The scriptures encourage us to seek advice and counsel from other Godly people who share the same values and goals that we have. "Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise"(Proverbs 19:20). "Make plans by seeking advice; if you wage war, obtain guidance"(Proverbs 20:18).
Peace of mind is another important confirmation requirement for making decisions. If you do not have peace about a decision, you should wait until God gives you peace. This does not mean your decision may not have some tension due to the faith aspect of it, but deep down you should have a peace that it is the right decision. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7).
Do you need to make a major decision? Ask God to give you confirmation through others.
AMEN!
Confirming Decisions
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Friday, August 13 2010
"Plans fail for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed" (Proverbs 15:22).
Confirming major decisions through the counsel of others is one way God protects us from poor decisions. This process is designed to confirm direction for which we are seeking confirmation. Paul was sensitive not to get too heavy-handed in the confirmation process though. He offered advice to others but was not the enforcer of their decisions. "And here is my advice about what is best for you in this matter"(2 Corinthians 8:10).
The requirement for efficient administration frequently requires single points of decision-making. Where there is willingness and trust to receive input, there is also humility, faith, and grace for God to work His pleasure in His servant. Where there is unwillingness, the opposite is true.
There have been times in my life where I have felt strongly about a certain issue only to receive feedback from those close to me which revealed that I was not accurate in my assessment of the situation. I have learned to yield in such situations, trusting that God is working through those in whom I am accountable.
The scriptures encourage us to seek advice and counsel from other Godly people who share the same values and goals that we have. "Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise"(Proverbs 19:20). "Make plans by seeking advice; if you wage war, obtain guidance"(Proverbs 20:18).
Peace of mind is another important confirmation requirement for making decisions. If you do not have peace about a decision, you should wait until God gives you peace. This does not mean your decision may not have some tension due to the faith aspect of it, but deep down you should have a peace that it is the right decision. "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7).
Do you need to make a major decision? Ask God to give you confirmation through others.
AMEN!
Update Time!
Recently attended the Planetshaker's Beautiful Women's Conference with Huis and it was amazing! God revealed to me things about myself and indeed the truth set me free! It was life changing and amazing...
Through my experience and testimony, my friend Char started asking me about it and i was privileged to share the gospel with her. I hope it was good seed sown... i'm really very excited about this =)Woot... to God's glory!
That's just one story.
For now, i feel like i need to reconnect again. Everyday i feel like i'm losing touch with myself.. So many things to deal with. Have i been running alone? Perhaps.
God help.. sometimes life seems overwhelming when i've to juggle work, studies, church, relationships and even helping my sis do her work. That was frustrating but i'm done bitching about it. I guess the verse for me in all this is to seek ye first His kingdom and His righteousness and ALL these things shall be added unto me.
Wonder what are ALL these things that God's referring to... is it more responsibility and work? I wish i can say that its a blessing.. but at this moment, its just eating my time and energy. Then in what way can i be set free here? Perhaps u can tell me.
Anyways, i'm preparing for HC now and thought that i could use this space to be pensive abt how i'm living my life so far. Its funny how i can get so fired up in an instance and totally get distracted from God straightaway.
The other thing is, i'm attempting to do the 40hr fast to help raise funds for the Global Food Crisis. Instead of fasting food, i will be fasting talking. I think the scary thing is not about not talking... its about setting up the event and being open and loud abt the cause i am going for and what i am representing. That if i say i am not talking, i have the responsibility to represent this cause by not talking. Its like if i say im a christian, i have the responsibility to act like a christian. Wow.
I've been asking God to speak to me and the last 2 posts i read was discussed how people face opposition whenever you are involved in a cause greater then themselves and that if its a risky thing that God has called you to step into, know that Jesus has given you the courage to step out.
Faith is needed! Faith comes from hearing the word... so i'm listening to christian songs now while preparing HC. Hehe!
Next update till again! =)
Through my experience and testimony, my friend Char started asking me about it and i was privileged to share the gospel with her. I hope it was good seed sown... i'm really very excited about this =)Woot... to God's glory!
That's just one story.
For now, i feel like i need to reconnect again. Everyday i feel like i'm losing touch with myself.. So many things to deal with. Have i been running alone? Perhaps.
God help.. sometimes life seems overwhelming when i've to juggle work, studies, church, relationships and even helping my sis do her work. That was frustrating but i'm done bitching about it. I guess the verse for me in all this is to seek ye first His kingdom and His righteousness and ALL these things shall be added unto me.
Wonder what are ALL these things that God's referring to... is it more responsibility and work? I wish i can say that its a blessing.. but at this moment, its just eating my time and energy. Then in what way can i be set free here? Perhaps u can tell me.
Anyways, i'm preparing for HC now and thought that i could use this space to be pensive abt how i'm living my life so far. Its funny how i can get so fired up in an instance and totally get distracted from God straightaway.
The other thing is, i'm attempting to do the 40hr fast to help raise funds for the Global Food Crisis. Instead of fasting food, i will be fasting talking. I think the scary thing is not about not talking... its about setting up the event and being open and loud abt the cause i am going for and what i am representing. That if i say i am not talking, i have the responsibility to represent this cause by not talking. Its like if i say im a christian, i have the responsibility to act like a christian. Wow.
I've been asking God to speak to me and the last 2 posts i read was discussed how people face opposition whenever you are involved in a cause greater then themselves and that if its a risky thing that God has called you to step into, know that Jesus has given you the courage to step out.
Faith is needed! Faith comes from hearing the word... so i'm listening to christian songs now while preparing HC. Hehe!
Next update till again! =)
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Dream.
Recently God has reminded me of a dream i used to be excited about. P. Tim asked me about on last sat and on sun, Gavin asked me about it again. Interesting how God put these ppl to ask me these things. And P. Tim says he wants to hold me to it and that i should start NOW. I shouldn't wait and leave it as a dream but put it into action.
The dream is that i want to revolutionise the education system. I want to change the way kids are being taught and provide a place where role modelling and character building is prevalent in the school's system. I foresee that this would be a solution to the lack of parenting and emphasis on personal/character development in future.
Anyways, here's the TGIF i received today which i thought was so relevant... besides, whilst talking to Tim, i realised that i had experience in the training industry for a reason. so cool huh! okok... tgif for now =)
Little by Little
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Tuesday, July 27 2010
"All hard work brings a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty" (Prov 14:23).
Is there something you would like to accomplish in life but simply cannot find the hours in the day to get started? Many of us suffer from procrastination. We justify putting our dreams aside because we don't believe we have the time or resources to accomplish the task.
Many times people tell me they believe they are called to write a book. I tell them, "Great, if God has called you to write a book, begin to write it." Sometimes the response is: "But I don't have a publisher." "That has nothing to do with it," I say. "That is not your problem. If God calls you to write a book, you are to begin to write. You may not be writing to get published. You may be writing for other purposes."
"The LORD your God will drive out those nations before you, little by little" (Deut 7:22). If God has given you a vision to do something, begin by taking baby steps toward that project. Begin to focus on the vision and take action steps toward it. Many times people ask me, "How in the world do you have time to write? You travel so much and seem to have such a full schedule." My answer to them is that I have a specific time of day in which I commit to writing. It is usually between 5 AM and 8 AM. I have found this to be my most creative and productive time. Very little can get in the way of this time if I believe God has given me a project to do.
You will be amazed at what God can do with a little each day. Do not let procrastination prevent you from accomplishing what God may want to do through your life. Make plans today to take baby steps toward the vision that is in your heart.
AMEN!
Gotta hand in my draft to Tim by this weekend man! GG. so much work to do too...
The dream is that i want to revolutionise the education system. I want to change the way kids are being taught and provide a place where role modelling and character building is prevalent in the school's system. I foresee that this would be a solution to the lack of parenting and emphasis on personal/character development in future.
Anyways, here's the TGIF i received today which i thought was so relevant... besides, whilst talking to Tim, i realised that i had experience in the training industry for a reason. so cool huh! okok... tgif for now =)
Little by Little
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Tuesday, July 27 2010
"All hard work brings a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty" (Prov 14:23).
Is there something you would like to accomplish in life but simply cannot find the hours in the day to get started? Many of us suffer from procrastination. We justify putting our dreams aside because we don't believe we have the time or resources to accomplish the task.
Many times people tell me they believe they are called to write a book. I tell them, "Great, if God has called you to write a book, begin to write it." Sometimes the response is: "But I don't have a publisher." "That has nothing to do with it," I say. "That is not your problem. If God calls you to write a book, you are to begin to write. You may not be writing to get published. You may be writing for other purposes."
"The LORD your God will drive out those nations before you, little by little" (Deut 7:22). If God has given you a vision to do something, begin by taking baby steps toward that project. Begin to focus on the vision and take action steps toward it. Many times people ask me, "How in the world do you have time to write? You travel so much and seem to have such a full schedule." My answer to them is that I have a specific time of day in which I commit to writing. It is usually between 5 AM and 8 AM. I have found this to be my most creative and productive time. Very little can get in the way of this time if I believe God has given me a project to do.
You will be amazed at what God can do with a little each day. Do not let procrastination prevent you from accomplishing what God may want to do through your life. Make plans today to take baby steps toward the vision that is in your heart.
AMEN!
Gotta hand in my draft to Tim by this weekend man! GG. so much work to do too...
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Jehovah Jireh
U are my provider.
In the nick of time u always provide.. not just physically but in all ways. Thank you father for being faithful!
I've been lazy to blog but i wanna give testimony of His goodness.
Recently, my housemate Carrie moved back to China for good. I had the privilege to pray for her and inherit her stuff! She gave me a sack of rice, her transport tickets and a bag of coins that mounted to $17.60! =) So happy!
I've been really broke recently... the last time i met the SG ppl (Sherms, Mali, Neri), i was down to my last cent. God was awesome cos Mali found 15c on the floor and i had 30c in my wallet. Short of the 5c which Wei gave me... just enough to buy an ice cream cone! Isn't God good or what?
Then, i just checked my account and found that i had $125 deposited in my account! It was described as PAY. But i'm pretty sure my work doesn't describe my transactions like that. It must've been something else or someone that deposited in my account... definately not from work! Wonder who or what? I've no idea but i gladly accept the money!
I've got lunch tomorrow and i was wondering how to pay for it.. woot! God is awesome!
Also, now i can claim for tax return! I'm so happy!!!! Wee!!!! Jehovah Jireh is real!
On another note, i wanna say that i've been cooking heaps lately! I cooked Bak Kut Teh on sat and it was a real success! Also, cooked beef in black bean sauce, awesome pot roast last week. Tonight i cooked stir fry vinegar veggies and steak! Omg... my steak is soooo awesome! I can't believe it!!! =)))) Made my own garlic bread too!
I blogged halfway and went to take a shower. so i'm gonna start new topic. LOL!
Just spoke to mah on fone and i was telling him abt my decision to go back sg. Sigh. i dont know what to do and this is so stressful! i know god has called me here for 2 years n stuff... but sigh. so hard la. mah said i should just do what god has called me to do and go back if he has called me here for just 2 years. it was pretty comforting just hearing someone re-focusing my life.
Anyways mother n pam wants me to take honors or masters. i think i should go back. but i applied for melb uni's honors just to tickle their fancy. see how. mah said i should just ask god again... yeps! gonna b fasting n praying when the 40-day thing starts =) wee!
anyways... more updates up soon! god is still good! and his ways are higher than our ways... amen!
In the nick of time u always provide.. not just physically but in all ways. Thank you father for being faithful!
I've been lazy to blog but i wanna give testimony of His goodness.
Recently, my housemate Carrie moved back to China for good. I had the privilege to pray for her and inherit her stuff! She gave me a sack of rice, her transport tickets and a bag of coins that mounted to $17.60! =) So happy!
I've been really broke recently... the last time i met the SG ppl (Sherms, Mali, Neri), i was down to my last cent. God was awesome cos Mali found 15c on the floor and i had 30c in my wallet. Short of the 5c which Wei gave me... just enough to buy an ice cream cone! Isn't God good or what?
Then, i just checked my account and found that i had $125 deposited in my account! It was described as PAY. But i'm pretty sure my work doesn't describe my transactions like that. It must've been something else or someone that deposited in my account... definately not from work! Wonder who or what? I've no idea but i gladly accept the money!
I've got lunch tomorrow and i was wondering how to pay for it.. woot! God is awesome!
Also, now i can claim for tax return! I'm so happy!!!! Wee!!!! Jehovah Jireh is real!
On another note, i wanna say that i've been cooking heaps lately! I cooked Bak Kut Teh on sat and it was a real success! Also, cooked beef in black bean sauce, awesome pot roast last week. Tonight i cooked stir fry vinegar veggies and steak! Omg... my steak is soooo awesome! I can't believe it!!! =)))) Made my own garlic bread too!
I blogged halfway and went to take a shower. so i'm gonna start new topic. LOL!
Just spoke to mah on fone and i was telling him abt my decision to go back sg. Sigh. i dont know what to do and this is so stressful! i know god has called me here for 2 years n stuff... but sigh. so hard la. mah said i should just do what god has called me to do and go back if he has called me here for just 2 years. it was pretty comforting just hearing someone re-focusing my life.
Anyways mother n pam wants me to take honors or masters. i think i should go back. but i applied for melb uni's honors just to tickle their fancy. see how. mah said i should just ask god again... yeps! gonna b fasting n praying when the 40-day thing starts =) wee!
anyways... more updates up soon! god is still good! and his ways are higher than our ways... amen!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Audience of One
I've been trying not to blog. I'm so bored of it. Y am i doing this? I ask myself this question every time to get me to blog.
Life has been hectic and empty. What's the point of wasting energy when in the end it amounts to nothing? My mind has been narrow and distracted. Fun for fun sake. Tsk tsk.. i thought i could do better. No, i've been swept through the whirlwind of life and blinded by the draws of immediate satisfaction.
Exams finished last Wed and so far, i've been untouchable. Life has turned upside down as though i've won everything i've worked for and there's nothing to live for anymore. Reminds me somewhat of Lindsay Lohan. Work hard for a film then party n drain myself till the need for another film arises.
Anyways, wanted to say that i'm literally a blonde now. Dyed it last Fri... its really different and needs some getting used to. Nice or not is not the point. The point is in the change.
On another note, i had my housechurch event of watchign sex and the city2 and it was a pretty good girl time together. Fits the theme of what we are endeavouring this season with the housechurch. To touch into what it means to be a women of God. GG. i'm so far from it... i'm more like women of the world lo. sian =(
I've been saying that i need to get my act together... haha. Shit. Next sem doing 4 modules instead of 3.. dont know how i'm gonna handle that! =(((
Pls god turn the situation around at Bayview... give me more shifts cos i need money! Mayeb god wants me to rely on him? gg. Y do i alw have to learn the hard way?
ok rambles are bad for health. Time to have some ice cream and be positive!
Peace out.
Life has been hectic and empty. What's the point of wasting energy when in the end it amounts to nothing? My mind has been narrow and distracted. Fun for fun sake. Tsk tsk.. i thought i could do better. No, i've been swept through the whirlwind of life and blinded by the draws of immediate satisfaction.
Exams finished last Wed and so far, i've been untouchable. Life has turned upside down as though i've won everything i've worked for and there's nothing to live for anymore. Reminds me somewhat of Lindsay Lohan. Work hard for a film then party n drain myself till the need for another film arises.
Anyways, wanted to say that i'm literally a blonde now. Dyed it last Fri... its really different and needs some getting used to. Nice or not is not the point. The point is in the change.
On another note, i had my housechurch event of watchign sex and the city2 and it was a pretty good girl time together. Fits the theme of what we are endeavouring this season with the housechurch. To touch into what it means to be a women of God. GG. i'm so far from it... i'm more like women of the world lo. sian =(
I've been saying that i need to get my act together... haha. Shit. Next sem doing 4 modules instead of 3.. dont know how i'm gonna handle that! =(((
Pls god turn the situation around at Bayview... give me more shifts cos i need money! Mayeb god wants me to rely on him? gg. Y do i alw have to learn the hard way?
ok rambles are bad for health. Time to have some ice cream and be positive!
Peace out.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Mental Drain.
i'm so sick of blogging. What for? Y am i doing this? Urgh..
Anyways, long story cut short... God gave me a plan for housechurch and we'll be doing captivating series. How apt huh? I'm really excited cos i'll be inviting my nonchristian friends to join us too. And i think its very timely that we do this since so many of the girls have been talking to me about girl issues. So apt! hahaha..
Quite excited... gotta keep praying for it!
I really need to study. I've been sleeping so much its not funny. And i've been cooped up so long at home i think i'm going mad cos i haven't been talking much to ppl. Maybe i needa go library soon. Grr.. i feel shit n empty... like i dont wanna study. How can i even do postgrad? Seriously???? I dunno how to manage man. I'm kinda stressed abt my future like what to do after grad. Have to seek God. sian.. i ask so long alr still like that... =S Stress!
Anyways, long story cut short... God gave me a plan for housechurch and we'll be doing captivating series. How apt huh? I'm really excited cos i'll be inviting my nonchristian friends to join us too. And i think its very timely that we do this since so many of the girls have been talking to me about girl issues. So apt! hahaha..
Quite excited... gotta keep praying for it!
I really need to study. I've been sleeping so much its not funny. And i've been cooped up so long at home i think i'm going mad cos i haven't been talking much to ppl. Maybe i needa go library soon. Grr.. i feel shit n empty... like i dont wanna study. How can i even do postgrad? Seriously???? I dunno how to manage man. I'm kinda stressed abt my future like what to do after grad. Have to seek God. sian.. i ask so long alr still like that... =S Stress!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Caring is Sharing
"Be sure you know the condition of your flocks, give careful attention to your herd" (Prov 27:23).
This spoke to me recently. dont so blur ah per...
If you care, share. If you share, u care.
I am so convicted to continually walk with God. Like Enoch u know? Sian.. feel so bad.
Oh that aside, i wanted to testify too that Dishan went for a sri lankan cell group like last fri or week before... and he really enjoyed it so much! I'm so happy! =)))
Also, my housemate Carrie promises to go church with me after exams... =) Wee!!!
God is goood! =)
Lastly, i've been going to the gym! Yay! But need to start studying also... pray for me! Exams are on 25th, 29th and 30th June. Thereafter, i'm a free bird!
Oh sorry sorry.. last last... I WANNA GO SNOW THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)))) so excited!!!!
This spoke to me recently. dont so blur ah per...
If you care, share. If you share, u care.
I am so convicted to continually walk with God. Like Enoch u know? Sian.. feel so bad.
Oh that aside, i wanted to testify too that Dishan went for a sri lankan cell group like last fri or week before... and he really enjoyed it so much! I'm so happy! =)))
Also, my housemate Carrie promises to go church with me after exams... =) Wee!!!
God is goood! =)
Lastly, i've been going to the gym! Yay! But need to start studying also... pray for me! Exams are on 25th, 29th and 30th June. Thereafter, i'm a free bird!
Oh sorry sorry.. last last... I WANNA GO SNOW THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)))) so excited!!!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Thoughts.
Sorry for the no update.
Today i had a thought. If Jesus and the angels were to have a conversation about me, what would they say?
I would think something like she's not been totally obedient nor seeking of the father's will as much but i will use her still.
This is prob what happened this week.
We held our first official housechurch meeting on thurs and i was relly refreshed and excited. I felt that there was so much to give and so much to take just from that fellowship time. It was awesome! I know God's plan is so amazing... am i in his perfect will or permissable will? hmm... recently i havent been doing as much qt as i ought or should. there is never enough.
Also sun, i missed church like totally. i was soooo gone in bed! Like i set alarm and it was ringing in 5 min intervals and i slept thru that. Alarm was set at 8.30am and i regained consciousness only at 1.30pm!!! Not only, i woke up with 3 missed calls and 4 messages! I SLEPT THRU ALL THAT! Amazing.
Anyways, it turned out to b not bad cos char asked me if i'm going for the later service cos she wanted to join me =) We were shpping around in the arvo then i totally forgot about church until she reminded me. LOL! So then service started and it was time for communion. She asked me about it... and the last time i explained, she said she will only partake when she's ready... like she don't wanna just take it so casually.. u know that kinda thing? But this week, she actually asked me to get her the communion stuff! Woot! She said she felt like she needed cleansing.. haha! =) I was so happy. Gos is awesome and his plans are perfect. Amazing =))))
Anyways, now assignment time then exam alr. Sian. When u know i've been updating means i've been studying. LOL! So till again!
Today i had a thought. If Jesus and the angels were to have a conversation about me, what would they say?
I would think something like she's not been totally obedient nor seeking of the father's will as much but i will use her still.
This is prob what happened this week.
We held our first official housechurch meeting on thurs and i was relly refreshed and excited. I felt that there was so much to give and so much to take just from that fellowship time. It was awesome! I know God's plan is so amazing... am i in his perfect will or permissable will? hmm... recently i havent been doing as much qt as i ought or should. there is never enough.
Also sun, i missed church like totally. i was soooo gone in bed! Like i set alarm and it was ringing in 5 min intervals and i slept thru that. Alarm was set at 8.30am and i regained consciousness only at 1.30pm!!! Not only, i woke up with 3 missed calls and 4 messages! I SLEPT THRU ALL THAT! Amazing.
Anyways, it turned out to b not bad cos char asked me if i'm going for the later service cos she wanted to join me =) We were shpping around in the arvo then i totally forgot about church until she reminded me. LOL! So then service started and it was time for communion. She asked me about it... and the last time i explained, she said she will only partake when she's ready... like she don't wanna just take it so casually.. u know that kinda thing? But this week, she actually asked me to get her the communion stuff! Woot! She said she felt like she needed cleansing.. haha! =) I was so happy. Gos is awesome and his plans are perfect. Amazing =))))
Anyways, now assignment time then exam alr. Sian. When u know i've been updating means i've been studying. LOL! So till again!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Noah.
I read yesterday in the newspapers that Noah's Ark was found and researchers say it is 99.9% confirmed. It was dated like more than 4,000 years ago and was found on Mt Ararat or something... the tallest point in the region. How awesome is this? That God continually shows himself to human kind and slowly reveals the truths of the Bible.
Scary shit was that my TGIF was entitled "Noah's Building Plan". I was so scared i decided to read it the next day.
So i did.. and God was good. He didn't really scare me that much. It was more reassuring that He will instruct me and will be there. But then, it also made me feel how i'm soooo not like Noah! Maybe I need to learn to be like that... to just listen and be obedient. =S
Here's the article anyways:
Noah's Building Plan
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Tuesday, April 27 2010
"Noah did everything just as God commanded him" (Gen 6:22).
When God chooses to do something on the earth He uses a man or woman to accomplish it. It is a partnership that is very one sided. God got the worst part of the deal.
God got to a very bad place with the human race. He decided to start over. He was going to wipe out the entire population and begin afresh. He chose one man to place His entire strategy around. Can you imagine that? God placed His entire plan around one man. Why? Because He could trust him. The Bible says Noah did everything just as God commanded him. He didn't argue with God. He didn't take short cuts. He listened and he obeyed.
Who was this man Noah? "Noah was a righteous man, blameless among the people of his time, and he walked with God" (Gen 6:9-10). When it came time to execute God's plan, He chose Noah to build a big boat. However, Noah had no idea what a boat was or how to build one. So, God told him how to build it. He gave him the dimensions; the height, width, space requirements - everything he needed to complete the task.
God will instruct us in performing our work too. God is in partnership with us in our working life. He has given us the tools, the creativity, and the drive to accomplish what He placed us on earth to do. That partnership requires us to listen to our senior partner though because He knows the exact way our project is to be done. And when you follow His direction that project will be excellent in every way.
"Thus says the LORD, your Redeemer, The Holy One of Israel: 'I am the LORD your God, Who teaches you to profit, Who leads you by the way you should go'" (Isaiah 48:17).
Do you need God to show you how to succeed in your call? Ask for His wisdom and understanding. God says he will give it generously (James 1:5).
AMEN & AMEN!!!
Scary shit was that my TGIF was entitled "Noah's Building Plan". I was so scared i decided to read it the next day.
So i did.. and God was good. He didn't really scare me that much. It was more reassuring that He will instruct me and will be there. But then, it also made me feel how i'm soooo not like Noah! Maybe I need to learn to be like that... to just listen and be obedient. =S
Here's the article anyways:
Noah's Building Plan
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Tuesday, April 27 2010
"Noah did everything just as God commanded him" (Gen 6:22).
When God chooses to do something on the earth He uses a man or woman to accomplish it. It is a partnership that is very one sided. God got the worst part of the deal.
God got to a very bad place with the human race. He decided to start over. He was going to wipe out the entire population and begin afresh. He chose one man to place His entire strategy around. Can you imagine that? God placed His entire plan around one man. Why? Because He could trust him. The Bible says Noah did everything just as God commanded him. He didn't argue with God. He didn't take short cuts. He listened and he obeyed.
Who was this man Noah? "Noah was a righteous man, blameless among the people of his time, and he walked with God" (Gen 6:9-10). When it came time to execute God's plan, He chose Noah to build a big boat. However, Noah had no idea what a boat was or how to build one. So, God told him how to build it. He gave him the dimensions; the height, width, space requirements - everything he needed to complete the task.
God will instruct us in performing our work too. God is in partnership with us in our working life. He has given us the tools, the creativity, and the drive to accomplish what He placed us on earth to do. That partnership requires us to listen to our senior partner though because He knows the exact way our project is to be done. And when you follow His direction that project will be excellent in every way.
"Thus says the LORD, your Redeemer, The Holy One of Israel: 'I am the LORD your God, Who teaches you to profit, Who leads you by the way you should go'" (Isaiah 48:17).
Do you need God to show you how to succeed in your call? Ask for His wisdom and understanding. God says he will give it generously (James 1:5).
AMEN & AMEN!!!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
1 Thess 5:24
1 Thess 5:24 "The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it"
He is faithful and He knows exactly what i need. Today i met with this Aunty who works in church. I've been wanting to meet up with her cos i felt a connection with her in terms of wavelength in the spirit. Somehow, she asked me to meet up... even on her leave day because she felt this was important and indeed it was! It was a divine appointment which she recognised and obeyed.
Talk with her was awesome! God knew i needed someone to watch over me and be accountable to me and render support as i start this new housechurch again. It was awesome cos God just connected us and I saw what she wanted to do as part of my calling here, like everything was just so in sync. Like so in line u know.
So yea.. I just wanna thank God for hearing that call and for bringing Aunty Kim to me. She prayed for me and stuff and it felt really good! It was really divine =)
He is faithful and He knows exactly what i need. Today i met with this Aunty who works in church. I've been wanting to meet up with her cos i felt a connection with her in terms of wavelength in the spirit. Somehow, she asked me to meet up... even on her leave day because she felt this was important and indeed it was! It was a divine appointment which she recognised and obeyed.
Talk with her was awesome! God knew i needed someone to watch over me and be accountable to me and render support as i start this new housechurch again. It was awesome cos God just connected us and I saw what she wanted to do as part of my calling here, like everything was just so in sync. Like so in line u know.
So yea.. I just wanna thank God for hearing that call and for bringing Aunty Kim to me. She prayed for me and stuff and it felt really good! It was really divine =)
Saturday, April 17, 2010
His Love.
I was asking God to speak to me in the next ODB i read and His word was so accurate. This is the article:
A young man told his father, “Dad, I’m going to get married.”
“How do you know you’re ready to get married, Ron?” asked the father. “Are you in love?”
“I sure am!” he replied.
The father then asked, “Ron, how do you know you’re in love?”
“Last night as I was kissing my girlfriend goodnight, her dog bit me and I didn’t feel the pain until I got home!”
Ron has got that loving feeling, but he has a lot of growing to do. Vernon Grounds, a former writer for Our Daily Bread, who has been married for more than 70 years, shares these points about how to grow in love:
Ponder God’s love in Christ. Take time to reflect on how He gave His life for you. Read about Him in the Gospels, and thank Him.
Pray for the love of God. Ask Him to give you an understanding of His love and to teach you how to live that out in your relationships with your spouse and others (1 Cor. 13).
Practice the love of God. Give of yourself. A newlywed told me he thinks love is practical. He said, “My responsibility is to make life easier for my spouse.” The other, tougher side of love is to challenge each other to act in godly ways.
Love will grow when we ponder love, pray for love, and practice love.
This is my prayer, kind Father,
So direct me from above
That I may live a life for You
And reflect my Savior’s love. —Messenger
As Christ’s love grows in us, His love flows from us.
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I have lots to learn. God please show me your love and enlarge my heart to love like u do. Amen!
And thanks for answering me and giving me strength... You are a living God and i'm glad to have you! =)
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
" 4 Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not want what belongs to others. It does not brag. It is not proud. 5 It is not rude. It does not look out for its own interests. It does not easily become angry. It does not keep track of other people's wrongs.
6 Love is not happy with evil. But it is full of joy when the truth is spoken. 7 It always protects. It always trusts. It always hopes. It never gives up.
8 Love never fails. But prophecy will pass away. Speaking in languages that had not been known before will end. And knowledge will pass away."
A young man told his father, “Dad, I’m going to get married.”
“How do you know you’re ready to get married, Ron?” asked the father. “Are you in love?”
“I sure am!” he replied.
The father then asked, “Ron, how do you know you’re in love?”
“Last night as I was kissing my girlfriend goodnight, her dog bit me and I didn’t feel the pain until I got home!”
Ron has got that loving feeling, but he has a lot of growing to do. Vernon Grounds, a former writer for Our Daily Bread, who has been married for more than 70 years, shares these points about how to grow in love:
Ponder God’s love in Christ. Take time to reflect on how He gave His life for you. Read about Him in the Gospels, and thank Him.
Pray for the love of God. Ask Him to give you an understanding of His love and to teach you how to live that out in your relationships with your spouse and others (1 Cor. 13).
Practice the love of God. Give of yourself. A newlywed told me he thinks love is practical. He said, “My responsibility is to make life easier for my spouse.” The other, tougher side of love is to challenge each other to act in godly ways.
Love will grow when we ponder love, pray for love, and practice love.
This is my prayer, kind Father,
So direct me from above
That I may live a life for You
And reflect my Savior’s love. —Messenger
As Christ’s love grows in us, His love flows from us.
******
I have lots to learn. God please show me your love and enlarge my heart to love like u do. Amen!
And thanks for answering me and giving me strength... You are a living God and i'm glad to have you! =)
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
" 4 Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not want what belongs to others. It does not brag. It is not proud. 5 It is not rude. It does not look out for its own interests. It does not easily become angry. It does not keep track of other people's wrongs.
6 Love is not happy with evil. But it is full of joy when the truth is spoken. 7 It always protects. It always trusts. It always hopes. It never gives up.
8 Love never fails. But prophecy will pass away. Speaking in languages that had not been known before will end. And knowledge will pass away."
Jars.
He collects your tears in a jar.
Don't be afraid, don't be dismayed. Holy spirit is your comforter..
He will never leave you nor forsake you.
Don't be afraid, don't be dismayed. Holy spirit is your comforter..
He will never leave you nor forsake you.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Again... He speaketh.
Amen to this article!
So many confirmations and clicks in my heart =) Thank you God!
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New Paradigms
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Monday, April 12 2010
"Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage" (1 Sam. 10:22).
If you want to experience something you've never done, you must do something you've never done. In his book Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will, Henry Blackaby writes, "You cannot go with God and stay where you are."
God often has to radically change us if we are going to fulfill His purposes in our lives. Saul was about to be anointed by Samuel as the first king of Israel. Samuel said to Saul, "The Spirit of the Lord will come upon you in power, and you will prophesy with them; and you will be changed into a different person" (1 Sam. 10:6). Up to this point, Saul had never prophesied or led a group of people. He had also never had to be accountable to a prophet and to God for his every action.
Saul took a big step of faith right away and prophesied with the prophets just as Samuel said he would. How exciting that must have been. Yet, when Samuel called the entire nation of Israel together to announce him as Israel's first king in history, Saul was nowhere to be found. This part of the story is humorous. Excitement is in the air, but when they call Saul's name, he doesn't even come forward. So the people "inquired further of the Lord, 'Has the man come here yet?' And the Lord said, 'Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage'" (1 Sam. 10:22).
I recall when God began moving me from a career in advertising to a new ministry to men and women in the workplace that involved writing and public speaking. Neither of these were my particular forté. I was forced to do something I had never done.
The story of King Saul should be an encouragement to us all. God continues to pick the foolish things of this world to confound the wise. Your greatest setback can be thinking that there's no way that God can use "little me." However, the reality is that He can and will, if we respond to the new places He takes us.
So many confirmations and clicks in my heart =) Thank you God!
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New Paradigms
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Monday, April 12 2010
"Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage" (1 Sam. 10:22).
If you want to experience something you've never done, you must do something you've never done. In his book Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will, Henry Blackaby writes, "You cannot go with God and stay where you are."
God often has to radically change us if we are going to fulfill His purposes in our lives. Saul was about to be anointed by Samuel as the first king of Israel. Samuel said to Saul, "The Spirit of the Lord will come upon you in power, and you will prophesy with them; and you will be changed into a different person" (1 Sam. 10:6). Up to this point, Saul had never prophesied or led a group of people. He had also never had to be accountable to a prophet and to God for his every action.
Saul took a big step of faith right away and prophesied with the prophets just as Samuel said he would. How exciting that must have been. Yet, when Samuel called the entire nation of Israel together to announce him as Israel's first king in history, Saul was nowhere to be found. This part of the story is humorous. Excitement is in the air, but when they call Saul's name, he doesn't even come forward. So the people "inquired further of the Lord, 'Has the man come here yet?' And the Lord said, 'Yes, he has hidden himself among the baggage'" (1 Sam. 10:22).
I recall when God began moving me from a career in advertising to a new ministry to men and women in the workplace that involved writing and public speaking. Neither of these were my particular forté. I was forced to do something I had never done.
The story of King Saul should be an encouragement to us all. God continues to pick the foolish things of this world to confound the wise. Your greatest setback can be thinking that there's no way that God can use "little me." However, the reality is that He can and will, if we respond to the new places He takes us.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Not by strength nor by might...
But by the power of the Holy spirit =)
TGIF - April 9th.
"Today, bring every project and endeavor before the Lord as you ask for His power and grace to accomplish it using both your natural gifts and the Spirit of God working together."
How timely! Today God just confirmed many things about what He has put in my heart for the new Housechurch. Karen on stage confirmed it when she spoke about community, Ellie confirmed it, was in Tim's heart and Kirsty confirmed it. Super confirmation! I'm pretty excited about it but not looking forward to the grind. Nevertheless, i know it will be rewarding and I know this is what God wants.
So today, i shall commit this new project called STITCHES where street kids with troubled homes can come for shelter and be empowered to live a better life. There will be an outreach thing this 8 May. Do pray because the Lord is doing a great work and we need spiritual coverage! =)
Btw, today in church i was officially commissioned to be a housechurch leader. In my mind i didn't think there was a need to be acknowledged like that but then again this will keep me on my toes. God sees the heart but people see the being. Don't play play Per!
TGIF - April 9th.
"Today, bring every project and endeavor before the Lord as you ask for His power and grace to accomplish it using both your natural gifts and the Spirit of God working together."
How timely! Today God just confirmed many things about what He has put in my heart for the new Housechurch. Karen on stage confirmed it when she spoke about community, Ellie confirmed it, was in Tim's heart and Kirsty confirmed it. Super confirmation! I'm pretty excited about it but not looking forward to the grind. Nevertheless, i know it will be rewarding and I know this is what God wants.
So today, i shall commit this new project called STITCHES where street kids with troubled homes can come for shelter and be empowered to live a better life. There will be an outreach thing this 8 May. Do pray because the Lord is doing a great work and we need spiritual coverage! =)
Btw, today in church i was officially commissioned to be a housechurch leader. In my mind i didn't think there was a need to be acknowledged like that but then again this will keep me on my toes. God sees the heart but people see the being. Don't play play Per!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Open close open close.
I think i'm not meant to have a piercing other than the original ones on my earlobes. Somehow, everytime i meet Lynn and Jim, my piercing would have a prob. So it dawned on me that maybe God didn't want me to have it for some reason. Asked God to tell me if he really didn't want me to have it then i went to the shop to put the stud back and strangely the hole closed within an hour! Maybe God really didn't want me to have it!
Somehow, i saw this sign as a new beginning. Like being clean and starting this new season. Tomorrow leading housechurch again. I don't know man.. i missed Mah's bball match today to kinda prep for tom. first thing's first.
Anyways, hope i know what i'm doing. *fear and trembling*
Thanks God for your grace and mercy. You just show up can already =)
Somehow, i saw this sign as a new beginning. Like being clean and starting this new season. Tomorrow leading housechurch again. I don't know man.. i missed Mah's bball match today to kinda prep for tom. first thing's first.
Anyways, hope i know what i'm doing. *fear and trembling*
Thanks God for your grace and mercy. You just show up can already =)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Din Din @ the Fangs.
Lynn and Jim invited a few of us over to their crib for din din... mah, audrey and chrys went.
I had a really good time actually... then the fangs announced their stepping down from leadership and announced that i'm to lead a housechurch.
Yep, this is pretty official. I shall be leading a housechurch soon. All females tho.. so too bad guys! The shock on Chrys' face was actually priceless! When i heard the words come out of their mouths i felt so scared. Another cycle again... gg. But u know what, it's God's housechurch, it's His people and i'm just doing as told. So yea...
Long story short... prepared or not, Battle begins now! Next week they will announce it officially and do the handover already. God's been gracious tho... at least i sorta have a vision n stuff alr so its kinda exciting. More updates to come!
Pls pray for me and cover me cos this is a spiritual battle and i need backup!!! =)
I had a really good time actually... then the fangs announced their stepping down from leadership and announced that i'm to lead a housechurch.
Yep, this is pretty official. I shall be leading a housechurch soon. All females tho.. so too bad guys! The shock on Chrys' face was actually priceless! When i heard the words come out of their mouths i felt so scared. Another cycle again... gg. But u know what, it's God's housechurch, it's His people and i'm just doing as told. So yea...
Long story short... prepared or not, Battle begins now! Next week they will announce it officially and do the handover already. God's been gracious tho... at least i sorta have a vision n stuff alr so its kinda exciting. More updates to come!
Pls pray for me and cover me cos this is a spiritual battle and i need backup!!! =)
Thursday, April 1, 2010
So Life Begins Again.
This is my Bday weekend and here are my reflections:
I hate my birthday. This is really personal.
Honestly maybe it was stemmed from since i was a kid. It was always disappointing cos my parents would forget or be away on business trips n no one would really celebrate that and Yeronn's was during june hols so we always went overseas and have nice celebration for him. Haha.. so sad rite? So yea, i've developed this sianness for my bday and i didnt really wanna do anything this year but maybe God was compensating me for my lack of childhood celebrations so my friends kinda organised shit for me.
So what have i done? On Sat we had a gathering of 13 close friends for a nice dinner. Was pretty cool cos each of them were assigned a color to wear so the whole thing was colorful and my color to wear was colorful. I had so much difficulty finding a nice colorful top but God was good nonetheless. After that, i got a table at bass and we partied the night away with everyone. I didn't really think much of my bday nor did i expect anything or feel like a bday girl but it was good being with my friends and i realised these kinds of celebrations bring ppl together. I've always been known to be a ppl gatherer but it never really was reality to me like i don't think so or i don't see it but i guess so then. My other friends had a house party and they cancelled the whole thing cos it clashed with my celebration, was pretty touched by that. Anyways, on Monday i went to work and finished by 12.30pm so chilled with Char, Becky and Rick at Docklands was pretty nice just to chill n relax. After that we played Barry then I met Mah for dinner. We had nice steak and stuff. Oh so funny too cos this year, i was wearing a Tiffany & Co. necklace on my bday and my friends bought me Tiffany necklace and so did Mah! Wah! Super Tiffany man! lol! Lucky different type of necklace... most of my pressies were accessories too. Was happy the guys got me perfume and they wrote me a sweet card, which i appreciated alot. I really think i'm really blessed. Even Mah says so =) and i know it is God's favour and grace on me. I don't deserve this.
All in all, i appreciate the efforts of my friends to celebrate my life and am grateful for their love and friendship. I think this bday really reaffirmed me of who i am and what ppl celebrate me for. God was showing me more about myself thru the eyes of others and encouraging me on this race. I miss my friends back home too and I know i wouldn't have been who i am today if not for the support and love i got from Singapore. So thanks for impacting me so that i can be an impact to others here!
Now, look ahead and fix my eyes on the prize.
I have been filled over and abundantly, my cup overflows and it shall flow from within to the streets.
Verse for 29 Mar TGIF - Becoming Influential:
"The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom" (Deut 28:13-14).
Amen and amen! =)
I hate my birthday. This is really personal.
Honestly maybe it was stemmed from since i was a kid. It was always disappointing cos my parents would forget or be away on business trips n no one would really celebrate that and Yeronn's was during june hols so we always went overseas and have nice celebration for him. Haha.. so sad rite? So yea, i've developed this sianness for my bday and i didnt really wanna do anything this year but maybe God was compensating me for my lack of childhood celebrations so my friends kinda organised shit for me.
So what have i done? On Sat we had a gathering of 13 close friends for a nice dinner. Was pretty cool cos each of them were assigned a color to wear so the whole thing was colorful and my color to wear was colorful. I had so much difficulty finding a nice colorful top but God was good nonetheless. After that, i got a table at bass and we partied the night away with everyone. I didn't really think much of my bday nor did i expect anything or feel like a bday girl but it was good being with my friends and i realised these kinds of celebrations bring ppl together. I've always been known to be a ppl gatherer but it never really was reality to me like i don't think so or i don't see it but i guess so then. My other friends had a house party and they cancelled the whole thing cos it clashed with my celebration, was pretty touched by that. Anyways, on Monday i went to work and finished by 12.30pm so chilled with Char, Becky and Rick at Docklands was pretty nice just to chill n relax. After that we played Barry then I met Mah for dinner. We had nice steak and stuff. Oh so funny too cos this year, i was wearing a Tiffany & Co. necklace on my bday and my friends bought me Tiffany necklace and so did Mah! Wah! Super Tiffany man! lol! Lucky different type of necklace... most of my pressies were accessories too. Was happy the guys got me perfume and they wrote me a sweet card, which i appreciated alot. I really think i'm really blessed. Even Mah says so =) and i know it is God's favour and grace on me. I don't deserve this.
All in all, i appreciate the efforts of my friends to celebrate my life and am grateful for their love and friendship. I think this bday really reaffirmed me of who i am and what ppl celebrate me for. God was showing me more about myself thru the eyes of others and encouraging me on this race. I miss my friends back home too and I know i wouldn't have been who i am today if not for the support and love i got from Singapore. So thanks for impacting me so that i can be an impact to others here!
Now, look ahead and fix my eyes on the prize.
I have been filled over and abundantly, my cup overflows and it shall flow from within to the streets.
Verse for 29 Mar TGIF - Becoming Influential:
"The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom" (Deut 28:13-14).
Amen and amen! =)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
I need...
I need ice cream...
I'm feeling so bored and useless. Like i don't know when my assignments are due n shit. Y liddat??? I think i've not settled down yet.. week 4 already!!! Wake up Per!!!!
You know its so funny that my presentation topic is PERception. Hahaha! =)
Ok, anyways... i was saying.... eh, i think i've nothing to say leh. Darn this blog shit.
I'm going to talk to God about my problem of nothing to say. Wait, maybe its not a problem right? Its ok to have nothing to say right?
*sigh*
I'm feeling so bored and useless. Like i don't know when my assignments are due n shit. Y liddat??? I think i've not settled down yet.. week 4 already!!! Wake up Per!!!!
You know its so funny that my presentation topic is PERception. Hahaha! =)
Ok, anyways... i was saying.... eh, i think i've nothing to say leh. Darn this blog shit.
I'm going to talk to God about my problem of nothing to say. Wait, maybe its not a problem right? Its ok to have nothing to say right?
*sigh*
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Bible Study.
We must retreat to our stronghold, seek the Lord, and listen for His answer. Then, we will fulfill the purpose for which God created us.
Amen! First Bible Study commences tomorrow at 12pm. =) May His presence be with us!
Amen! First Bible Study commences tomorrow at 12pm. =) May His presence be with us!
Monday, March 8, 2010
ME.
Finally back and blogging.
I have truly been blessed over the 2 weeks in Singapore and Phuket. Got to chill with family and friends, go for sat service, attend Angie & Josh's engagement party, celebrate my bday and all. I guess God also intended more from me in this trip. He spoke and realigned my vision for this year.
I attended chruch service with mother on sunday and 2 verses that was close to my heart was released. The one abt Peter being the rock (peter which represented me cos my name means Peter) and the other one from Ezekiel about prophesying to the dry bones again. How many times God wanna tell me that huh? Anyways, during sat service Winston's sharing over communion totally spoke to me again about prophesying to the dry bones. I wept terribly and ashamedly cos i was sitting front row right smack in the middle but the more i tried to resist it, the more the tears poured. God really brought me to a place where i surrendered all my resistance to labour in his Kingdom and reminded me of His word. I don't know what's there to cry about and i forgot why i was so touched already... but definately he was doing something la. LOL. So yea, this was key to what He wanted me to do in Melb and i really needed that touch from Him.
I really need to focus on His Kingdom work now. So far it has been a struggle but keeping my eyes on the goal helped with decision making. First things first. On sat i missed the biggest clubbing event so far... everyone and i mean everyone went. No one believed that i wouldn't go... was at Char's house and the girls were all getting ready and still assuming i'd go but we parted ways. I would have sooooo loved to go. First things first. Chilled with Mah instead... was a gd sesh =)
On sunday woke up early for morning prayer too. Wee!
And funny shit is that i got arrowed to do bible study with my friend Chrys. It was actually divinely appointed! Before i left Jim and Lynn jokingly said that I should start a ME Housechurch (name of current housechurch) at where i live which is Malvern East, coincidentally ME too. Little did i know that was prophetic cos it was Joyce Khoo that arrowed me to do the bible study. It clicked in my heart and even i was surprised at my enthusiastic response. Things are getting serious and i gotta be serious about my life for the lives of others around. God is so serious this time. No fooling around! I am scared but kinda excited too... praise God!
You know my friends actually ask me why i am doing this. The whole cutting clubbing and being righteous n stuff. They said i won't like it and didn't understand what i would get out of it but i know the rewards are great and eternal. I hope they experience that one day.
For now, keep thanking Him for His grace and mercy. It is new every morning!
Oooh, btw i got HD for my summer module! Woot!!!! =)))
I have truly been blessed over the 2 weeks in Singapore and Phuket. Got to chill with family and friends, go for sat service, attend Angie & Josh's engagement party, celebrate my bday and all. I guess God also intended more from me in this trip. He spoke and realigned my vision for this year.
I attended chruch service with mother on sunday and 2 verses that was close to my heart was released. The one abt Peter being the rock (peter which represented me cos my name means Peter) and the other one from Ezekiel about prophesying to the dry bones again. How many times God wanna tell me that huh? Anyways, during sat service Winston's sharing over communion totally spoke to me again about prophesying to the dry bones. I wept terribly and ashamedly cos i was sitting front row right smack in the middle but the more i tried to resist it, the more the tears poured. God really brought me to a place where i surrendered all my resistance to labour in his Kingdom and reminded me of His word. I don't know what's there to cry about and i forgot why i was so touched already... but definately he was doing something la. LOL. So yea, this was key to what He wanted me to do in Melb and i really needed that touch from Him.
I really need to focus on His Kingdom work now. So far it has been a struggle but keeping my eyes on the goal helped with decision making. First things first. On sat i missed the biggest clubbing event so far... everyone and i mean everyone went. No one believed that i wouldn't go... was at Char's house and the girls were all getting ready and still assuming i'd go but we parted ways. I would have sooooo loved to go. First things first. Chilled with Mah instead... was a gd sesh =)
On sunday woke up early for morning prayer too. Wee!
And funny shit is that i got arrowed to do bible study with my friend Chrys. It was actually divinely appointed! Before i left Jim and Lynn jokingly said that I should start a ME Housechurch (name of current housechurch) at where i live which is Malvern East, coincidentally ME too. Little did i know that was prophetic cos it was Joyce Khoo that arrowed me to do the bible study. It clicked in my heart and even i was surprised at my enthusiastic response. Things are getting serious and i gotta be serious about my life for the lives of others around. God is so serious this time. No fooling around! I am scared but kinda excited too... praise God!
You know my friends actually ask me why i am doing this. The whole cutting clubbing and being righteous n stuff. They said i won't like it and didn't understand what i would get out of it but i know the rewards are great and eternal. I hope they experience that one day.
For now, keep thanking Him for His grace and mercy. It is new every morning!
Oooh, btw i got HD for my summer module! Woot!!!! =)))
Saturday, February 20, 2010
ARE YOU READY?
I'm coming back to motherland! Woot!
This shall be my last post from Melb till 2 weeks later! Hehehe... I'm so excited to see everyone. Gosh how i miss everything in Singapore! But at the same time, i'll miss mah too. Well, something's gotta give. Hahaha..
It was actually really funny cos 2 weeks is really a short time but last night's party felt more like a farewell. Haha.. how funny is that! It does feel like a farewell to Mah kinda...
Anyways....... this trip back i do have a purpose. And i hope God reveals to me and confirms stuff in my heart. Its gonna be heart wrenching and exciting but i can spare the drama. I'll give an update abt it when im back again.
Thanks God for my ticket back n time with loved ones! Love love.
This shall be my last post from Melb till 2 weeks later! Hehehe... I'm so excited to see everyone. Gosh how i miss everything in Singapore! But at the same time, i'll miss mah too. Well, something's gotta give. Hahaha..
It was actually really funny cos 2 weeks is really a short time but last night's party felt more like a farewell. Haha.. how funny is that! It does feel like a farewell to Mah kinda...
Anyways....... this trip back i do have a purpose. And i hope God reveals to me and confirms stuff in my heart. Its gonna be heart wrenching and exciting but i can spare the drama. I'll give an update abt it when im back again.
Thanks God for my ticket back n time with loved ones! Love love.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Secured and Fastened.
"LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance" (Ps 16:5-6).
This verse came to me when i arrived at Melbourne a year ago on 20 Feb 09 and now it is back! Hahahaa...
Crazy shits! =)
This verse came to me when i arrived at Melbourne a year ago on 20 Feb 09 and now it is back! Hahahaa...
Crazy shits! =)
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Repeat Myself Again.
I realised i had "Mighty to Save" as a title before. LOL! Cos this song struck me today... I can't remember my last mighty to save post but i may have pasted lyrics. Anyhooz, i'm still gonna do that.
This spoke to me because...
- He is so compassionate and merciful to me
- He can move mountains, mighty to save. So in need right now.
- Author of my salvation. Thank you Lord!
- Take all my fears and failures. I've heaps of them. But he is mighty to save remember!
- I give my life to follow, everything i believe in, now i surrender. I do. At least till i become distracted again la. Haha.. but working on it. Don't wanna fight it no more.
- All for your glory Lord.
So apt this song. #$%^&*( my eyes twitching like mad!!! I'm so annoyed now! Fawurhaweriohaerkawnfkjawfnawlfnawornh this shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
***
Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.
Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.
Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.
My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)
My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
This spoke to me because...
- He is so compassionate and merciful to me
- He can move mountains, mighty to save. So in need right now.
- Author of my salvation. Thank you Lord!
- Take all my fears and failures. I've heaps of them. But he is mighty to save remember!
- I give my life to follow, everything i believe in, now i surrender. I do. At least till i become distracted again la. Haha.. but working on it. Don't wanna fight it no more.
- All for your glory Lord.
So apt this song. #$%^&*( my eyes twitching like mad!!! I'm so annoyed now! Fawurhaweriohaerkawnfkjawfnawlfnawornh this shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
***
Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.
Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.
Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.
My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)
My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Fulfilling Your Purpose.
I had dinner with Lynn and Jim just now. Was telling them about my purpose and calling in Melb. This TGIF freaking hit the mark! It is incredible... so scary!!!
I was sharing about my purpose here and how i should complete it before i leave. How God spoke to me about His plans for me after i Grad. How i am scared of what is to come. How I should do what God has asked me to do already and not procrastinate and be rebellious. What are the measures i am taking to move towards that. Evaluating what are the activities that wastes time. What really counts.
This whole TGIF sums up everything! Like seriously mad shit!!!!
***
Fulfilling Your Purpose
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Monday, February 15 2010
"O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD" (Ps 139:1-4).
Your purpose in life is chosen by God. It is not negotiable. It is like calling water wet-there is no changing that fact, and there's no changing God's purpose for your life. While you may not fulfill the purpose for which you were made, you still have a purpose that God intends for you to fulfill. This is your blueprint from God. In the same way that He had a specific purpose in mind for Jesus when He sent Him to the earth, He has a specific purpose in mind for your life.
This doesn't mean, however, that there is one highly specific niche for you to fill and that if you miss it, too bad. It is my belief that you can achieve your purpose in many different and creative ways. This should take the pressure off. You won't throw your entire life off course by choosing the wrong college, job or mate. God is much bigger than any miscalculation or disobedience on your part. "The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me" (Ps. 138:8). Isn't that comforting to know?
Defining your purpose will help you to determine the activities that you should be involved in. Like Jesus, you should not involve yourself in activities that contradict His purpose for your existence. Jesus? purpose was to do the will of the Father and become the salvation for mankind.
Each of us must ask why we are involved in an activity. Is it a God-activity, or just a good activity? Remember, Jesus only did something if He saw the Father doing it, and He was able to see what His Father was doing because of His intimate relationship with Him.
Today, take steps to insure you are aligned with your purpose.
***
WOW. Crazy shit or what????
I was sharing about my purpose here and how i should complete it before i leave. How God spoke to me about His plans for me after i Grad. How i am scared of what is to come. How I should do what God has asked me to do already and not procrastinate and be rebellious. What are the measures i am taking to move towards that. Evaluating what are the activities that wastes time. What really counts.
This whole TGIF sums up everything! Like seriously mad shit!!!!
***
Fulfilling Your Purpose
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Monday, February 15 2010
"O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD" (Ps 139:1-4).
Your purpose in life is chosen by God. It is not negotiable. It is like calling water wet-there is no changing that fact, and there's no changing God's purpose for your life. While you may not fulfill the purpose for which you were made, you still have a purpose that God intends for you to fulfill. This is your blueprint from God. In the same way that He had a specific purpose in mind for Jesus when He sent Him to the earth, He has a specific purpose in mind for your life.
This doesn't mean, however, that there is one highly specific niche for you to fill and that if you miss it, too bad. It is my belief that you can achieve your purpose in many different and creative ways. This should take the pressure off. You won't throw your entire life off course by choosing the wrong college, job or mate. God is much bigger than any miscalculation or disobedience on your part. "The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me" (Ps. 138:8). Isn't that comforting to know?
Defining your purpose will help you to determine the activities that you should be involved in. Like Jesus, you should not involve yourself in activities that contradict His purpose for your existence. Jesus? purpose was to do the will of the Father and become the salvation for mankind.
Each of us must ask why we are involved in an activity. Is it a God-activity, or just a good activity? Remember, Jesus only did something if He saw the Father doing it, and He was able to see what His Father was doing because of His intimate relationship with Him.
Today, take steps to insure you are aligned with your purpose.
***
WOW. Crazy shit or what????
Saturday, February 13, 2010
CNY.
I got this verse for Chinese New Year: "Seek ye first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you" Luke 12:31
English new year say same thing.. now CNY also repeat. Scareded!!!
Ok.. seek Him first in all things. Better go do QT now again. Hehe!
English new year say same thing.. now CNY also repeat. Scareded!!!
Ok.. seek Him first in all things. Better go do QT now again. Hehe!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Furball.
This furball has just tamed her mane. Woo!! I had a new haircut with new color and highlights... i'm so happy cos i haven't done my hair in a year!!! that's crazy... So what's new? I have a better cut, shorter fringe, a little trim, some layering done, full head copper base and streaks of strawberry blonde highlights. It looks really reddish orangey now but it should turn darker chocolate after a few washes. Sooo long nvr do hair lo! Recently i everyday have to tie cos my hair like shit... hahaha... tie no more! woot! Actually, this new color makes my skin look fairer... but makes my features look sharper... im cool with anything i guess. Wee!
Let's see, what else... oh, today i was super healthy! I went to the gym, had salad and tuna for lunch, slurped a protein shake i bought from 7-11, had boiled mixed veges for dinner! How awesome huh? Also, i've been taking my vits. I think i deserve some ice cream later! =)
Also, i have been watching DH like mad!!! I'm like halfway thru S5 already! Omg... i'm mad! But also have a lot of free time cos i don't wanna study yet. Exams are next week... but i think i'll wait till the rush and adrenaline kick in.
Wondering how this weekend will be like tho. So many ppl's bdays! Schedule goes like party on friday, spend a day with mah on sat... dunno what we're doing tho.. then on sun its CNY, V Day and Mah's bday. Triple whammy. I'll be spending the arvo with him then he's got family dinner i think. Got it sorta planned out alr.. hope he doesnt doubple plan anything..
Anyways, i'm just happy that i finally got my hair cut~ ooh... also, this hairdresser was from msia then went to singapore to work for ages and was an apprentice under david gan. he also went to london for school n stuff... pretty good and really passionate abt his work. Also, it's sooo affordable! hahahahaaha... =) i'm so happy... hahahhahaa...
i'm officially crazy. sniffing in too much ammonia.
Let's see, what else... oh, today i was super healthy! I went to the gym, had salad and tuna for lunch, slurped a protein shake i bought from 7-11, had boiled mixed veges for dinner! How awesome huh? Also, i've been taking my vits. I think i deserve some ice cream later! =)
Also, i have been watching DH like mad!!! I'm like halfway thru S5 already! Omg... i'm mad! But also have a lot of free time cos i don't wanna study yet. Exams are next week... but i think i'll wait till the rush and adrenaline kick in.
Wondering how this weekend will be like tho. So many ppl's bdays! Schedule goes like party on friday, spend a day with mah on sat... dunno what we're doing tho.. then on sun its CNY, V Day and Mah's bday. Triple whammy. I'll be spending the arvo with him then he's got family dinner i think. Got it sorta planned out alr.. hope he doesnt doubple plan anything..
Anyways, i'm just happy that i finally got my hair cut~ ooh... also, this hairdresser was from msia then went to singapore to work for ages and was an apprentice under david gan. he also went to london for school n stuff... pretty good and really passionate abt his work. Also, it's sooo affordable! hahahahaaha... =) i'm so happy... hahahhahaa...
i'm officially crazy. sniffing in too much ammonia.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Happy New Year on 19 Jan 2010
=))))))))))))
I received a card from SG!!!! So happy... made my day guys! It really did... I love u all and i really can't wait to be back soon. Missing everyone heaps heaps! =)
And yes, i do feel the love! *BIG HUGS*
I received a card from SG!!!! So happy... made my day guys! It really did... I love u all and i really can't wait to be back soon. Missing everyone heaps heaps! =)
And yes, i do feel the love! *BIG HUGS*
Monday, February 1, 2010
Mon-Day
What does Mon mean anyways? Y Mon day? Y can't there be a Per-Day?
Today was boring as but guess what, i'm gonna start gyming again!!! I just gymed today and joined membership again. Shall gym tomorrow... and i almost went to work tom when i have class. Lucky i checked my timetable!!! Almost went to work today too when i'm free! lol! Had dinner with my housemate at some malaysian restaurant.. i miss SG food. Funny how i don't eat SG food when i'm there and when i eat more asian stuff here. Not really tho. But yea...
Hmm... Mah sold his car so it's gone for like next 5 weeks or so. Happy for him tho.. but sian for me. Hehe... Oh well.
Today's word of the day:
Friend, God is calling you to manifest His Kingdom through a higher level of relationship with Him. Are you willing?
I want to be willing... but the flesh is weak. I need to beat it into shape... hence, discipline the physical by eating right and exercising. Jia you!!! =)
Today was boring as but guess what, i'm gonna start gyming again!!! I just gymed today and joined membership again. Shall gym tomorrow... and i almost went to work tom when i have class. Lucky i checked my timetable!!! Almost went to work today too when i'm free! lol! Had dinner with my housemate at some malaysian restaurant.. i miss SG food. Funny how i don't eat SG food when i'm there and when i eat more asian stuff here. Not really tho. But yea...
Hmm... Mah sold his car so it's gone for like next 5 weeks or so. Happy for him tho.. but sian for me. Hehe... Oh well.
Today's word of the day:
Friend, God is calling you to manifest His Kingdom through a higher level of relationship with Him. Are you willing?
I want to be willing... but the flesh is weak. I need to beat it into shape... hence, discipline the physical by eating right and exercising. Jia you!!! =)
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Adrenaline High.
In the end, i did go club last night. But i had such a blast.. good sesh good sesh!!!
It's really weird that last night i slept at like 5.45am? And woke up at like 9.45am? I was still like fidgety and hyper.... super weird! Like i'm not tired at all... and today i finished my group assignment... and i'm not tired. Like i don't feel like sleeping. How weird!!! Tomorrow i don't have work too.. woot woot!
Something really funny happened too. I was telling Dev and Sarah how i will wake up in the train before my stop instinctively... and i actually missed my stop. The worst bit is that i'm not even sleeping!!! Dev was joking abt how maybe i shud make a friend on the train n stuff and i actually did!!! hahaha.. it was funny cos when i alighted, this girl asked me how to get to the other platform cos she took the wrong train and we were both alighting at Caulfield! LOL! So we chatted and shit... and she's graduating same time as me too... how coincidental huh!
So yea... little trivia thing of the day!
So i'm done with assignment 1.. gotta start on assignment 2 alr. Lucky this is individual work if not i think i can faint. I've been complaining alot abt my group members but actually i think they are not bad alr.. could have been worse. Need to be thankful.
Anyways, i was telling Mah how i have stopped doing my QT and shit... he says i should do it cos its good for my soul and can spiritually help me at work and everything. I find it amazing how he can know these things and not experience it. He's so silly tho.. he listens to Enya before he sleeps to unwind and also cos its good for his soul. Hahaha.. what a silly boy! I really hope he finds God and know for himself how our God is so wonderful and that he can listen to Hillsongs and not Enya.. cos its good for his spirit and not just soul =)
Ooh... i'm also happy for Mah that he sold his car and is gettign a new one soon. Woot! Oh... and yesterday my workmate Danny came for our housechurch bbq and i think it was really good! Mah & Danny enjoyed themselves.. and Danny was open to us praying for him for his job search and IELTS exam. I really think seeds has been sown. Wee... =)
It's really weird that last night i slept at like 5.45am? And woke up at like 9.45am? I was still like fidgety and hyper.... super weird! Like i'm not tired at all... and today i finished my group assignment... and i'm not tired. Like i don't feel like sleeping. How weird!!! Tomorrow i don't have work too.. woot woot!
Something really funny happened too. I was telling Dev and Sarah how i will wake up in the train before my stop instinctively... and i actually missed my stop. The worst bit is that i'm not even sleeping!!! Dev was joking abt how maybe i shud make a friend on the train n stuff and i actually did!!! hahaha.. it was funny cos when i alighted, this girl asked me how to get to the other platform cos she took the wrong train and we were both alighting at Caulfield! LOL! So we chatted and shit... and she's graduating same time as me too... how coincidental huh!
So yea... little trivia thing of the day!
So i'm done with assignment 1.. gotta start on assignment 2 alr. Lucky this is individual work if not i think i can faint. I've been complaining alot abt my group members but actually i think they are not bad alr.. could have been worse. Need to be thankful.
Anyways, i was telling Mah how i have stopped doing my QT and shit... he says i should do it cos its good for my soul and can spiritually help me at work and everything. I find it amazing how he can know these things and not experience it. He's so silly tho.. he listens to Enya before he sleeps to unwind and also cos its good for his soul. Hahaha.. what a silly boy! I really hope he finds God and know for himself how our God is so wonderful and that he can listen to Hillsongs and not Enya.. cos its good for his spirit and not just soul =)
Ooh... i'm also happy for Mah that he sold his car and is gettign a new one soon. Woot! Oh... and yesterday my workmate Danny came for our housechurch bbq and i think it was really good! Mah & Danny enjoyed themselves.. and Danny was open to us praying for him for his job search and IELTS exam. I really think seeds has been sown. Wee... =)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Focus Daily.
So hard man...
This year, the focus is on intimacy with God. No work for Him or do anything without intimacy... this is my new motto. Siao liao. So hard... I chui already la! God help help!!!
I also wanted to add that there's this morning at 6.30am while i was sitting on the bench at a tram stop, this pigeon came right in front of me and shat in front just like that. Then that bird stared at me for a while... how strange! I literally told it to stop staring. Geez.. so thick skinned!
Also, i had an awesome slp last night... 1 of those 14-hour ones with lights switched on and make up man! I crashed into bed just like that. Even my alarm set was on pm and not am... so i missed lecture today!
I wanna bitch too that my group mates give me headache. I don't like group work man!!! Only like it when everyone is on the ball and motivated to do well. Shit people that give me minimal work with no effort and soul deserve to fail on their own. What... are they counting on me to fix up their shit? Pls... urgh!!!!! Waste my time!!! Tom group meeting i hope i don't snap.
GG. Also, I haven't clubbed in a while already... the moment i decide to stop and didn't go.. i couln't wake up for church. So in the end, Mah had to bring me to afternoon service again. loL! I bet i'd have rocked up to church if i went clubbing... last sat, no drinks, no club and i didn't set my alarm by the time my eyelids slammed down. Maybe this week i'll do better. Maybe my church is in the club right? Well, bringing club friends to church and housechuch BBQ this sat tho. Exciting! Hahahaa... I reckon people should bring the church to clubs and not the club to the church.. more effective then. Oooh, ask the DJs to spin christian songs! Hahahahaha... but nobody knows the songs also.. lame.
Shit, i'm planning to go this Sat for various reasons.. Should i or can i not? God... u there? Tell me already.
Focus daily man... focus Per.
This year, the focus is on intimacy with God. No work for Him or do anything without intimacy... this is my new motto. Siao liao. So hard... I chui already la! God help help!!!
I also wanted to add that there's this morning at 6.30am while i was sitting on the bench at a tram stop, this pigeon came right in front of me and shat in front just like that. Then that bird stared at me for a while... how strange! I literally told it to stop staring. Geez.. so thick skinned!
Also, i had an awesome slp last night... 1 of those 14-hour ones with lights switched on and make up man! I crashed into bed just like that. Even my alarm set was on pm and not am... so i missed lecture today!
I wanna bitch too that my group mates give me headache. I don't like group work man!!! Only like it when everyone is on the ball and motivated to do well. Shit people that give me minimal work with no effort and soul deserve to fail on their own. What... are they counting on me to fix up their shit? Pls... urgh!!!!! Waste my time!!! Tom group meeting i hope i don't snap.
GG. Also, I haven't clubbed in a while already... the moment i decide to stop and didn't go.. i couln't wake up for church. So in the end, Mah had to bring me to afternoon service again. loL! I bet i'd have rocked up to church if i went clubbing... last sat, no drinks, no club and i didn't set my alarm by the time my eyelids slammed down. Maybe this week i'll do better. Maybe my church is in the club right? Well, bringing club friends to church and housechuch BBQ this sat tho. Exciting! Hahahaa... I reckon people should bring the church to clubs and not the club to the church.. more effective then. Oooh, ask the DJs to spin christian songs! Hahahahaha... but nobody knows the songs also.. lame.
Shit, i'm planning to go this Sat for various reasons.. Should i or can i not? God... u there? Tell me already.
Focus daily man... focus Per.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Way of Life.
I was reading this article and got me thinking.. which phase am i in?
I need to start tuning in and doing HIS WORK HIS WAY. I keep saying i need to do this and that.. but do i? Such a struggle! It's such a struggle even just to do assignment!!! URGH!!!!
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His Work, His Way
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Wednesday, January 20 2010
"So I have caused you to be despised and humiliated before all the people, because you have not followed my ways but have shown partiality in matters of the law" (Mal 2:9).
My work, My way - When you and I live in this world without Christ we live a life just as Esau lived his life. Esau despised his birthright and failed to enter into a relationship with God that allowed him to fulfill his destiny. In essence, Esau fulfilled his work, his way. His life represented the carnal life of the flesh.
His work, my way - When you and I become born-again by the Spirit of God, we begin to focus our attention on living for Christ. We realize it is His work we are doing but it takes time before we learn what it means to do His work, His way.
My work, His way - As the Holy Spirit does His work in us, we learn to walk with God. We learn what it means to see our work as His work and we desire to do it His way. The Israelites were guilty of not knowing His ways and were unable to move into the Promised Land because of not understanding how to do Their work, His ways.
His work, His way - When we begin to walk with God we begin to realize that all that we do is His work and He calls us to do it His way. When we begin to walk with God in this manner we begin to see the Kingdom of God manifested in our working lives. We begin to experience His power and learn what it means to do His work, His way.
In order to experience God in this way, each of us must give our working lives to the Lord and ask him to teach us His way. Moses asked God: "If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you" (Ex 33:12). Moses realized He needed God to teach him His ways in order for him to prosper in His relationship with God.
What best describes your life today? Your work, your way; Your work, His way; His work, your way; or His work, His way? Pray that you learn to do His work, His way.
I need to start tuning in and doing HIS WORK HIS WAY. I keep saying i need to do this and that.. but do i? Such a struggle! It's such a struggle even just to do assignment!!! URGH!!!!
***
His Work, His Way
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2 by Os Hillman
Wednesday, January 20 2010
"So I have caused you to be despised and humiliated before all the people, because you have not followed my ways but have shown partiality in matters of the law" (Mal 2:9).
My work, My way - When you and I live in this world without Christ we live a life just as Esau lived his life. Esau despised his birthright and failed to enter into a relationship with God that allowed him to fulfill his destiny. In essence, Esau fulfilled his work, his way. His life represented the carnal life of the flesh.
His work, my way - When you and I become born-again by the Spirit of God, we begin to focus our attention on living for Christ. We realize it is His work we are doing but it takes time before we learn what it means to do His work, His way.
My work, His way - As the Holy Spirit does His work in us, we learn to walk with God. We learn what it means to see our work as His work and we desire to do it His way. The Israelites were guilty of not knowing His ways and were unable to move into the Promised Land because of not understanding how to do Their work, His ways.
His work, His way - When we begin to walk with God we begin to realize that all that we do is His work and He calls us to do it His way. When we begin to walk with God in this manner we begin to see the Kingdom of God manifested in our working lives. We begin to experience His power and learn what it means to do His work, His way.
In order to experience God in this way, each of us must give our working lives to the Lord and ask him to teach us His way. Moses asked God: "If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you" (Ex 33:12). Moses realized He needed God to teach him His ways in order for him to prosper in His relationship with God.
What best describes your life today? Your work, your way; Your work, His way; His work, your way; or His work, His way? Pray that you learn to do His work, His way.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Disfunctional.
I went to a Naturopath on Sat for a body check up cos i suspect my body is a little imbalance in nutrients and the doctor did all the tests and found that i'm very deficient in Iron, Zinc, Magnesium, Calcium, Vitamin B2 and Protein. So currently, I am on numerous amounts of supplements and have to take protein shakes for brekkie.
So this year, I am really embarking on being healthy on the inside. This too should reflect my spiritual health.
My current diet consist mostly of fruits, veggies and protein shakes and other pills. I'm like taking twice more than usual prescription now. Also, I have to stop consumption of alcohol for about 2 weeks before i see the doctor again. So detox programme and replenishment time. I am determined to do this!!! Also, no junk food. If i must, ice cream permitted 2-3 times a week =)
So far, this is taking more work and effort cos i actually can't just eat rubbish or convenient food. I actually have to prepare my diet and meals so that means waking up early to prepare the shakes and other stuff to eat. GG.
So far so good.
On the spiritual side, i'm running away again. I know i have to get in shape and whip up but so much effort and i'm afraid of responsibilities and stuff so i have been running away from trying to be ignorant. Hahaha... Time for me to wake up and detox all the shit that i've accumulated and getting healthy in the spirit too!
Such a battle between the spirit and flesh. Tough times. Press on.
For now, do assignment! lol!
So this year, I am really embarking on being healthy on the inside. This too should reflect my spiritual health.
My current diet consist mostly of fruits, veggies and protein shakes and other pills. I'm like taking twice more than usual prescription now. Also, I have to stop consumption of alcohol for about 2 weeks before i see the doctor again. So detox programme and replenishment time. I am determined to do this!!! Also, no junk food. If i must, ice cream permitted 2-3 times a week =)
So far, this is taking more work and effort cos i actually can't just eat rubbish or convenient food. I actually have to prepare my diet and meals so that means waking up early to prepare the shakes and other stuff to eat. GG.
So far so good.
On the spiritual side, i'm running away again. I know i have to get in shape and whip up but so much effort and i'm afraid of responsibilities and stuff so i have been running away from trying to be ignorant. Hahaha... Time for me to wake up and detox all the shit that i've accumulated and getting healthy in the spirit too!
Such a battle between the spirit and flesh. Tough times. Press on.
For now, do assignment! lol!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
What SG Lacks is Coming Back.
I'VE BOOKED MY FLIGHT BACK TO SINGAPORE ALR!!!!
Details:
EK EMIRATES[EK] - 405
Depart: MELBOURNE (MEL) Sat, 20 Feb 2010 06:55 PM
Arrival: SINGAPORE (SIN) Sat, 20 Feb 2010 11:25 PM
ECONOMY CLASS
Dep Terminal:
Arr Terminal: 1
Aircraft: 77W
EK EMIRATES[EK] - 404
Depart: SINGAPORE (SIN) Fri, 5 Mar 2010 10:25 PM
Arrival: MELBOURNE (MEL) Sat, 6 Mar 2010 08:45 AM
ECONOMY CLASS
Dep Terminal:
Arr Terminal: 2
Aircraft: 77W
Get ready Singapore~!!! Can't wait... like finally! Thanks Father for the ticket =)
Wooooooooo
Have mixed feelings now. What should i do what should i do? I'm so excited!!!
Details:
EK EMIRATES[EK] - 405
Depart: MELBOURNE (MEL) Sat, 20 Feb 2010 06:55 PM
Arrival: SINGAPORE (SIN) Sat, 20 Feb 2010 11:25 PM
ECONOMY CLASS
Dep Terminal:
Arr Terminal: 1
Aircraft: 77W
EK EMIRATES[EK] - 404
Depart: SINGAPORE (SIN) Fri, 5 Mar 2010 10:25 PM
Arrival: MELBOURNE (MEL) Sat, 6 Mar 2010 08:45 AM
ECONOMY CLASS
Dep Terminal:
Arr Terminal: 2
Aircraft: 77W
Get ready Singapore~!!! Can't wait... like finally! Thanks Father for the ticket =)
Wooooooooo
Have mixed feelings now. What should i do what should i do? I'm so excited!!!
Monday, January 11, 2010
2010.
This must have been the first post of 2010.
Interesting. I just moved house and school just started so everything's pretty hectic. Its been strange cos my trams have been having trouble. The last time someone was ill so we were all held up... then the tram broke down like recently so we had to change trams. It was weird also cos i saw the same lady on the same tram when i was going to work and after i left work. So coincidental huh! Also, this aboriginal guy asked me for $3 on my ride to work and i said i didn't have. Somehow, i felt really compelled to give so i gave him $5 instead. Like strange things have been happening to me... i guess also cos of the season i'm in. I need to hear and obey Him... like i was eating a banana on the tram and one of the fibre thread things came off so i threw it on the ground. Then again i felt so bad n guilty i went to pick it up. =S This is how its gonna be this year i guess. The quest to be righteous... even if i'm not i guess i will feel compelled to inside. Good thing i guess =) Then yesterday the trams stopped at 6pm and the other trams were not in operation over the weekend and i didn't have a tram! So this guy came over and told me that we had no more trams and we discovered we were heading to the same place so we took a cab and he paid for it. Woot! Free eh! God's good la.. I think its also a sign that maybe i shud stop taking trams alr. GG. So much shit happening.
Anyways, yesterday i had dinner at Homer's with Rhordan and Neuman came along too! I had a good time just chatting and catching up. Missed everyone... even the Tans cos we haven't chilled in a bit =) So it was real good...
Lately i've been real busy too. Have work and school and today's my only free day and i super need to catch up on work cos i missed my first lecture cos of work. gg.
Oh, on Sat we had this girl's gathering at Joyce Khoo's house where we had a major cookout session. It was real cool... we all learned to make Zuchini Soup, Curry Chicken, Beef Rendang, Pumpkin and ham Quiche, sticky Date Pudding, Oven Baked Chicken and some Salad thing. So cool huh! We had an awesome time and the food actually turned out to be really good! =) It was also a good girl's gathering. Unfortunately i was so tired from morning's work that I slept while everyone was chatting...
Seems like i really have to wake up early everyday. This is really tiring for me. The latest is maybe 9am for school at 10am. Today i woke up at 11am but its still not enough for me. The other days i've to be up by like 5plus or 6plus. Summore Sunday have to go to church n stuff. so really no break man! =S
Hope i don't burn out that soon cos start of the year only man!!! Jia you per. Need to go chillax soon... weekends were good tho. Oooh ooh.. im currently planning something. More updates to come~! =)
Interesting. I just moved house and school just started so everything's pretty hectic. Its been strange cos my trams have been having trouble. The last time someone was ill so we were all held up... then the tram broke down like recently so we had to change trams. It was weird also cos i saw the same lady on the same tram when i was going to work and after i left work. So coincidental huh! Also, this aboriginal guy asked me for $3 on my ride to work and i said i didn't have. Somehow, i felt really compelled to give so i gave him $5 instead. Like strange things have been happening to me... i guess also cos of the season i'm in. I need to hear and obey Him... like i was eating a banana on the tram and one of the fibre thread things came off so i threw it on the ground. Then again i felt so bad n guilty i went to pick it up. =S This is how its gonna be this year i guess. The quest to be righteous... even if i'm not i guess i will feel compelled to inside. Good thing i guess =) Then yesterday the trams stopped at 6pm and the other trams were not in operation over the weekend and i didn't have a tram! So this guy came over and told me that we had no more trams and we discovered we were heading to the same place so we took a cab and he paid for it. Woot! Free eh! God's good la.. I think its also a sign that maybe i shud stop taking trams alr. GG. So much shit happening.
Anyways, yesterday i had dinner at Homer's with Rhordan and Neuman came along too! I had a good time just chatting and catching up. Missed everyone... even the Tans cos we haven't chilled in a bit =) So it was real good...
Lately i've been real busy too. Have work and school and today's my only free day and i super need to catch up on work cos i missed my first lecture cos of work. gg.
Oh, on Sat we had this girl's gathering at Joyce Khoo's house where we had a major cookout session. It was real cool... we all learned to make Zuchini Soup, Curry Chicken, Beef Rendang, Pumpkin and ham Quiche, sticky Date Pudding, Oven Baked Chicken and some Salad thing. So cool huh! We had an awesome time and the food actually turned out to be really good! =) It was also a good girl's gathering. Unfortunately i was so tired from morning's work that I slept while everyone was chatting...
Seems like i really have to wake up early everyday. This is really tiring for me. The latest is maybe 9am for school at 10am. Today i woke up at 11am but its still not enough for me. The other days i've to be up by like 5plus or 6plus. Summore Sunday have to go to church n stuff. so really no break man! =S
Hope i don't burn out that soon cos start of the year only man!!! Jia you per. Need to go chillax soon... weekends were good tho. Oooh ooh.. im currently planning something. More updates to come~! =)
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