Audience of One

I've been trying not to blog. I'm so bored of it. Y am i doing this? I ask myself this question every time to get me to blog.

Life has been hectic and empty. What's the point of wasting energy when in the end it amounts to nothing? My mind has been narrow and distracted. Fun for fun sake. Tsk tsk.. i thought i could do better. No, i've been swept through the whirlwind of life and blinded by the draws of immediate satisfaction.

Exams finished last Wed and so far, i've been untouchable. Life has turned upside down as though i've won everything i've worked for and there's nothing to live for anymore. Reminds me somewhat of Lindsay Lohan. Work hard for a film then party n drain myself till the need for another film arises.

Anyways, wanted to say that i'm literally a blonde now. Dyed it last Fri... its really different and needs some getting used to. Nice or not is not the point. The point is in the change.

On another note, i had my housechurch event of watchign sex and the city2 and it was a pretty good girl time together. Fits the theme of what we are endeavouring this season with the housechurch. To touch into what it means to be a women of God. GG. i'm so far from it... i'm more like women of the world lo. sian =(

I've been saying that i need to get my act together... haha. Shit. Next sem doing 4 modules instead of 3.. dont know how i'm gonna handle that! =(((

Pls god turn the situation around at Bayview... give me more shifts cos i need money! Mayeb god wants me to rely on him? gg. Y do i alw have to learn the hard way?

ok rambles are bad for health. Time to have some ice cream and be positive!

Peace out.